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Tired.
My top word that been coming from my mouth lately. I guess I’ve said it so many times until it didn’t have any meaning to you at all anymore.
It’s been two years, I said I was sorry and you accept me back and you said it yourself that we will begin as a new start and forgiving each other’s mistake.
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I’ve no fucking effort, you said.
Effort.
What is effort?
I start to questioning it, when you say ‘supaya ada usahanya’ over a phone call tonight.
Did I never put any effort on us?
So what it is, having so much sleepless night waiting for you? Leaving thousand calls and messages but you pretending to not know.
What it is, going through so much pain just to make sure we are okay?
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Another night, another cry.
It hurts me.
My head, my body, my teeth and everything.
It hurts me so bad.
I wonder until when that I have to deal with this amount of mental breakdown.
I have no one.
Calling out all the help that I can get.
Please, it hurts me.
Help, somebody...
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In case you found me in here.
Know that I did this because I have to let you go. Not because I hate you or anger.
Because things will be much easier if we step back and back to square one.
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Lately.
Lately I’ve been feeling quite insane. My mind is deranged and I am a total mess of lost thoughts and sadness.
I’ve been dealing with sadness for these 3 or 4 months past. I want to cry all my life, to pour out all the sadness and misery laying at the bottom of my heart.
It sickening, that whenever you woke up, you feel nothing. Like you just don’t ( Read more... ) -
I will never be friend with Sleep.
Whenever I take a nap in the middle of the day or when it was in the night time, when I wake up I feel particularly shitty (mentally) , I wonder why that is.
Is it why somehow I feel like I don’t want to sleep at all?
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You.
I’m on the state,
Where I don’t care that maybe you didn’t love me anymore
Where I don’t care that maybe you didn’t want me anymore
Where I don’t care that you maybe, just maybe already found someone who you thought that you love her more than you loved me
I don’t care
I just need to know how was your day
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Sugiri Arwa Kumara
I wish nothing for now on, but all the best for you. I betray you so much and did all the things that i could without thinking how hurt is your feeling.
I want you and only you. Nobody else.
Please, let me in again. Please, let yourself trust me again.
I love you.
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An option.
There comes a time when you have to stop crossing oceans for people who wouldn’t even jump in puddles for you.
Nobody want to be an option.
Nobody want to be another alternative choice.
It’s funny how you thought you meant something to someone, but then they go and prove you wrong.
I'm staying because I know this will pass, without thinking about my ( Read more... )