Just woke up sneezing. Trying to get back to sleep next to two snoring boys.

Had a productive day, mostly finished my color stripe painting, started drafting a lotus.

I need to learn how to engage in conflict.

There's a Min Pin occupying my lap as if it was a dog bed. He and Zeke are my two of my few joys.

If the benefits package was right, I need to see a counselor. The triggers/flashbacks are killing me.

Ten hour shift. I know others work longer, I'm just not adapted to it.

People react to you based on how you behave and respond to them. Remember this.

I am NOT a breeder. I am a woman with a career who if she did choose to put her health at risk to have a child would end up having to pay for and likely care for it mainly herself anyhow if how life is with the pups is any indication, so screw that!

Wonder if I was in pain while asleep, ergo the teeth clenching. New benefits kick in June 1st, have to see someone. Only I know how much constant hurt I'm in and the toll it's taking, but want to see my options.

Must have had my teeth locked a good portion of the night, jaws hurt today. Still have a pit where they took the canine but that's to be expected.