i might not be around much longer. everything is fucking closing in on me. so i guess my boyfriend broke up with me when i wasn't looking. i'm not allowed to see my best friend. i might be kicked out of my house and move in with my aunt. i spent so long in court for a fucking 550 dollar fine when someone should have died. i feel like hell. i want ( Read more... )

everything has been pretty horrible lately, i mean i nearly got arrested, but i just got ticketed for being on school grounds unauthorized. i've been doing drugs hardcore. and thats awful. i envy everyone. i failed both dondero and otech so i'm going to talk to tinetti tomorrow and have her transfer me to churchill so i can graduate on time. which ( Read more... )

it makes me sad and angry when people dont talk to me for no reason. i mean why are you being so awkward? well whatever i blow it off just like i do everything else. i mostly love farmington, i usually have an amazing time.

this weekend/week was crazy fun with people i just met. i loved it

fuck the judicial system. everything in life comes free to some people and it's not fair. when will harmful people get their just deserves? i dont believe what doesnt kill you makes you stronger, i feel so weak and helpless. why was i given this life i lead when will the burden be taken away from me ( Read more... )

we are going to trial, jury hasn't been fully picked yet and i have to do this tomorrow as well. each days makes life that much harder. how is that possible fuck if i know. the day of sentencing i will either be dead or live happy and/or my dad will be in jail for murder. my skin crawls and burns anytime i see any of them. they give me visions of ( Read more... )

just to clarify, to those who read this...not many

i'm not dating justin we broke up about a week ago but we are still friends

i am currently dating jon from work he's amazing. he kind of reminds me a bit of calvin. i like that.

well anyway that wasn't much important

p.s. court tomorrow wish me luck

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silly

List 3 things that bug you - things that others may find trivial. Then tag 6 of your friends. Only list 3 things because you may/can be tagged again.

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the feeling i never wanted to feel again is back three-fold, how could it be so hard. what did/do i want. so many things have changed for what? what did i get myself into why do i do this. my brain is devided and my heart is broken.