changing up my livejournal. all fancy and what not. well im excited any way. i think im going to quit facecrack and just post on this all day, like photos and stuff.


( Read more... )

i chose to leave and then leave again. and again, nothing was falling into place, and maybe i could use it as an excuse for being almost 25 single, and a fuck up. always leaving ( Read more... )

it would expire soon anyway, and now i have to learn to deal with it, that is how my relationships will go from now on, considering im not planning on keeping still for more than a month at a time, and really it should be shorter than that, i guess its just in the matter of time that i wise up to this shit ( Read more... )

so im habging out at zasjay's the kitty had something wrong with his eye, so they took him to the vet, i slept for a while cuz i stayed up late last night ( Read more... )

im just filled with hate, bewildered by how intolerant i am to those around me. tonight is a small example of why i feel this way, me. a hurt fucked up insecure person that tries so fucking hard to have good self esteem walks into a bar and just to have a drink ill explain why later, well i sit there plenty of young attractive guys of all types are ( Read more... )

i only post on this when im stuck at Chris's house and he's busy doing something else, this time around he just left to work, he drives a cab. more than half of his clientele are female strippers. which i am not happy about. but we've been talking more and having more late night early morning conversations. which are half way arguments that end in ( Read more... )

lets see, things are going pretty alright. im even thinking about staying in portland for an extra month, but i feel this feeling may be fleeting. i have a renewed feeling of hope in the individuals of portland, as people leave people than come. the only thing that makes this process annoying is the fact that all the bright eyed new comers are ( Read more... )

It still blows my mind that I have my own place to stay. After growing up not having shit or a bed to sleep in I'm surprised I can provide for me what my own mother couldn't. Crazy bitch. Anyway. Lately, it's been me struggling to not freak out. I'm so heavy into what other people want me to do I dont feel like I'm living life like i should be. In ( Read more... )

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0_i-AI61PEo&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YApNirMC9gM&feature=related

um yeah.... wtf. i remember when my ex boyfriend dumped me to be alone, fucking went back to his ex, and then dumped her again. like i knew he would, and then is now going to get married to some random chick. im just so confused and surprised at what a selfish dick i used to love. actually, im not surprised what he does does not surprise me any ( Read more... )