i've been extremely careless
i'm not ready for the world to know.

my life is kind of twisted right now. like seriously.
i love the fact that i'm finally really on my own.
i've got my own place.
my own tv. that I picked out and bought
my own bed. to myself.

my choices.
my thoughts.

my quiet.

my chaos.

i'm a little confused.

"I can't help it baby, this is who I am
Sorry, but I can't just go turn off how I feel
You kill me, you build me up, but just to watch me break
I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away"

I just read old post from like....6 years ago.
Don't know if I'll ever do that again. It was kind of weird.
But it also kind of makes me miss a lot of people.
And I didn't realize how much I swore haha. I was suppose to be a good little mormon girl.
hahaha.

::sigh::

anyways...

I really just wanna be in bed right now.
I need to quit doing shit right before I go to sleep.
I wake up so groggy. ??? is that how you even spell that?

anyways...

I'd really like to be able to book shows, play shows, manage a couple bands and be able to quite my other job.
Just b/c I sometimes really hate working a real job.

So I can't believe the last time I was actually on here was around Halloween. Crazy...so much has happened ( Read more... )

WITH THOUGHTS
BUT NOT REGRETS

how fitting is that?

halloween show this...well halloween haha.
It should be a really great show. I'm excited.

im not sure where i'm going.

if anyone has any suggestions let me know.

so i noticed tonight that i've had this thing for almost 5 years....and I had a different one before that. Crazy. So much drama happened on live journal it was crazy. But kind of fun in a way. I miss highschool hahaha.

things are so different
i wish i could stop caring about
where you are, who you're with, who you're sleeping with,
kissing, ( Read more... )

things have been...amazing.
and then today was just....ok.

bummer.

i'm not sure what's wrong with me.