I had my chance. I'm really sorry.

Today, I learned what it is to be one again. To have to stand on my own two feet without a crutch. I've let go everything I believe in and am trying to rebuild the foundation of the 5 story building that is my Self. It will be a long and arduous task but as soon as I can get rid of everything that hinders my progress, I know I will be fine ( Read more... )

I had a companion.

I don't want to be in this anymore. Not right now.

I don't like this at all. I think I made a mistake but at the same time, I don't think I'm wrong. I want so much to believe.

just taking it in stride.

You were the only thing I thought I got right. I feel so disappointed when I look back at the ruin that is my past. It's overwhelming. The work I must do to redeem myself. To become a better person. Is it doable, just daunting.

It took an outsider to tell me what we are. I love you mom.

The beginning of the end. I noticed a changed in your behavior and the way you speak to me now is so inconsistent. I wish I knew the answer. I wish I knew what was going on or what to do but I'm so confused. Should I just sit back and wait? What is it that you want from me??

I think i should really stop this charade. It's been downhill for a long time now and I think we're all at our ends. thank you for all the memories.