of coarse it had to come up tonight ( Read more... )

not lonely. just alone.
and the days feel like weeks.
and the weeks just fucking bleed.
but this pen wont write.
this knife wont cut.
i wont sleep.
without dreaming of dieing
and like walking the edge.
i think i like it.

"just for the record the weather
today is calm and sunny,
but full of bullshit."

Its this shitty feeling, not the storm
clouds, that make these days fade
this is just my over active mind
working over time, stuck with a
fading smile.
I guess i should take my advice
and get to know this knife.

"And I know she loved me then ( Read more... )

all in all i'm just an asshole who couldn't sweet talk the princess.

fuck mondays you know, cause....
i am one step closer to loading this gun and
painting the walls with my thoughts.
cause i dont like who i am.
and i dont want to be what i have become.
and i am one more day like today.
to walking out of this city with no
plans on turning back.

she makes me smile.
and i have no problem dieing in her arms.
in fact i look forward to it.

Your day breaks, your mind aches ( Read more... )

i'll be fine pretending i'm fine without you.

i miss your eyes ( Read more... )