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[killerdumpling]

Its happening again.  The only difference is I can feel it this time.  Feel it creeping up on me like an unwanted visitor that I can't seem to keep away.  Its frustrating but I don't know how else to handle it other then how I have been.  Take things one day at a time.  Pretend to be happy when you're not.  It gets me through the day but not much

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[nashiko]

I know we're not awake like...ever at the same time, and I've got my head so far up my own ass sometimes and for that I'm sorry. But for the love of god, if you need me, tell me! Send me a letter, a message, something so I know. IM me, text me, FB me, anything if I can't get to me phone.

[flyinghighrose]

First of all hun, I think you need to see someone, I know you don't like therapists but this sounds like at the very least you need to go talk to another person to help you. Secondly, stop taking on the stress of others, I know you will want to help them with their problems, but its not going to help you any if you break down from taking on too many problems at once. It's too much stress for you right now.

you know where I am and how to reach me if you want to *glompstightly*

[killerdumpling]

Thank you so much Tom. It means alot to have to say that! I'm doing alot better this week thanks to you, Nancy and Crystal. Im so glad to have such amazing friends. *hugs back* I would definitely love to set aside some Thursdays for lunch. Anytime you'd like, just let me know and I'll clear my schedule for you.

Are things okay with you though? School going okay? You settling in alright? Im always around..even if it takes me a bit to answer. You know you can call me at anytime if you ever need me for something.

[icydawn]

I'm still here pretty lady don't forget that *hugs*

[killerdumpling]

*hugs back* I know! Sorry I haven't called. I've just been uber busy with work and then for like a week I was actually sleeping again...But! How are you?

[icydawn]

I'm up and down, but unfortunately mostly down no matter how hard I try. My medicaid sucks an asshole, my bladder is still over active despite a few rounds of antibiotics, and I owe the hospital over $900. I feel like my existence is virtually unacknowledged by most of the group most of the time and since I've been so overwhelmed and upset I've been kinda avoiding contact with anyone to avoid being called "emo" again. Eh maybe I am. Sometimes I just want to give up. I hope you're doing alright though, you always deserve good times, not bad ones. I miss you, ttyl.

[killerdumpling]

Hunny..im sorry to hear that. You sound really overwhelmed, not that I can blame you. It makes me sad to hear that you're down..anything I can do? Don't let the hospital bills get to you. Have you tried to talking to them? I know alot of hospitals are willing to work out arrangements based on income and the like so it might be something worth looking into. You're not emo though, so don't even think that. And no giving up, okay? I know times are tough but you're constantly in my thoughts and prayers as Im sure you're in everyones. We all love you! I promise.