someone from my work died last week and i just found out today. the sad part is this is someone i would interact with on a daily basis. she stopped working here like 3 weeks ago but still, its weird knowing that someone you talked to every day is dead.

i got so mad today i fucking snapped a phone in half, practically. (it will never work again, and thats close enough to snappingf it in half for me) now im gonna drink and try to forget everything. seriously, fuck me. goddamn cock ass fuck shit. oh well we had a good long run "bro". i hope you got my text, tis most likely the last yee shall hear ( Read more... )

So.... Does anyone besides, ummmm, maby one person, call me to hang out because they enjoy my company ( Read more... )

i don't know if you can hear me over the silence.... its deafening

i think i officially hate every part of my life. everything i care about gets destroyed, or i just push things/people i care about away. well fuck you world i give up. you win.

i fucking hate everything. its 8:40 and i just got home, i spent the last 6 and a half hours driving around trying to figure shit out. i took a nap in a parking lot for half an hour then took another nap at a rest area 85 miles from this hell-hole. now im back at this fucking house and just want to sleep so then i can wake up and get the fuck out.

oh yeah, and getting drunbk by ursaelf while listening to sad music makes you one fucking miserable person, but hey im kinda used to this ( Read more... )

wow.. i saw two faces today i had not seen in quite some time and experienced feelings i hadent in quite some time. i just have this feeling in the pit of my stomach kinda like when you really really want something to hapeen but you arent sure it really will. in fact sometime, most of the time being completely honest to yourself you cant really see ( Read more... )

it wasnt my fault this time. hooray i guess.... i fucking hate everything!


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i don't know how much longer i can live like this..... i may seem ok on the outside. but don't let my appearance fool you.

at least im pretty well dressed, yeah im pretty well dressed.