ive had "friends" do it to me tons of times, they never actually seem remoreseful, i almost attempted it and now i just feel like a huge pile of shit. either im just a pussy, or i have some people in my life that i actually care about. ill figure that out soon.

in other news, i almost died today, i was driving home and it became very hard to breath ( Read more... )

I know I stand in line until you think ( Read more... )

What do you do when you have lost your passion?
Its a dark and lonely world when you have lost something you always thought would be there.
Id have a bad day and take solace in the fact that i can change my mood by doing something familiar.
Lately even that doesnt make me right.
I think its time for a change, dont you?

The Lord knows that this ( Read more... )

fuck fuck fuck fuck. the more i know about someone the less i usualy like them, there are a few exception, like the people who i talk to on a regular basis. maby my standards for human beings are just to high. maby im just to high. maby the world will end before i get a chance to do anything spectacular. so many questions in my head. where do i ( Read more... )

ive never been in love, im in love with the idea of being in love.

what the fuck?

without sounding too self pitying heres a list of shit that happened today. excuse the grammer, im quite drunk...

broke my shifter knob on my old school tax bracket friend maker $35
blew the motor on same car  $500
ran over a rock with my other newer initial tax bracket friend maker, then the passenger side airbag went off. $1000

took the day off of ( Read more... )

i realized no one ever really calls me. it was always me calling everyone else, to see what was up. then i did a little experiment, i wanted to see who would call me if i never called first........ well the experiment is complete. and i have very few friends now. or is it that i had always had very few friends? the day you realize some of the most ( Read more... )

to britany ( Read more... )

at what point do you stop fighting: yourself, for your friendships, for your romances, for your life. when can i just give up and call it what it is. when can i end it ( Read more... )

for the past like 2 or 3 weeks ive been under a horrible amount of stress. details are not important, but i feel like ive managed to piss off all of my friends one way or another. for this i apologize. ive just been going through some shit i wouldnt wish upon anyone. i try to keep a happy face, but fuck its hard to do sometimes. so im sorry guys. ( Read more... )