Hopefully going to get acid today. I HOPE SO. I'm excited. It's going to be rad. Well, she BETTER call me. She didn't yesterday and she said she would today, so she really should call me today. If not, I'm just going to go to Ruba, get a pack of cigarettes, then go home, and get drunk. I'd prefer to hallucinate though ( Read more... )

So. Buzzed my hair (what's new?), don't really wear make-up anymore, look like a boy. Stretched my ears more, look good. Just having fun I guess. Don't know.

Going to Jen's house to celebrate her birthday. Aw, she's 18 now!!! <3 <3 <3 Listening to Rage Against the Machine... texting... drawing pictures... realized I love red lipstick... and I have a piano recital tomorrow. I hope I do well!!!

Of COURSE this happened. Why am I even fucking surprised anymore??? FUCK!!!! I've never felt more like dying than right fucking now. Just saying fuck it and taking as many fucking sleeping pills as I can and go to sleep and never wake up

Hung out with him. Met him at that place. Went to his place. Finished. Cried. Got Karamel Sutra. He got sad. Look in his eyes and see an infinite sadness... and I know that's what my eyes look like too ( Read more... )

It's my seventeenth birthday AND Cinco de Mayo!!!! Bring on the booze!

My birthday is on Saturday. 17 years old. Gonna have my friends over, get drunk, smoke weed, smoke cloves, play Guitar Hero II, maybe fuck around with some people (he he). It's going to be great, I know it!

I'm so glad I'm not dating Tyler anymore. I'm free!

Going to break up with Tyler. I want to be on my own. I only wish he could understand, but he doesnt.

Got a new keyboard and mouse, both of which are wireless! It's pretty rad. I re-ordered Pokemon Diamond and Pearl, because fucking Amazon.com lost the order. But whatever, I should be getting it by April 25th. IT BETTER BE HERE BY NOW. IT BETTER!!! Tyler's all sad. It makes me sad. I guess he just randomly gets upset. I don't know. I don't like it ( Read more... )

Nothing to do. I think I'll just go to Ruba and read a book and see what happens. I just wanna go somewhere. I hate sitting now.