so..i almost got arrested with some huge issue between me and jenn and its over now. My parents arent mad, i just owe them 1,200 dollars for all the shit i fucking did b/c thats how much it pretty much cost to save my ass. So i love my parents and im not even in that much trouble, but i DID have to move back home...so im home now...worst part, ( Read more... )

Once again, im broken. This time i feel as if i might never be able to pick myself back up again. I have never felt this used and completely wasted. If i can hold on through this, then in the future i may never give myself to anybody ever again. I gave my heart away only to find that every persons intentions are completely misleading. i never want ( Read more... )

im not sure if i hate this summer or love it. im all on my own, which is nice, but im not really on my own. im completely depending on everybody else in my life and i hate that. i hate the fact that i have never NOT depended on anybody. i have always depended on my parents, until i got the fuck out of there, now im depending on my friends in ( Read more... )

i dont know where my head is anymore. i feel like i am living one never ending day. Im happy and i feel so alive one minute and then the next i realize how used and fucking lonely i am. i cant handle relationships. its fucked up how that unspoken 'i own you' shit comes up. Relationships shouldnt be like that. its so stupid. i try so hard to be a ( Read more... )

Being homeless isnt that cool, but i do have a place to stay for the first semester of school which is pretty rad. i miss my boyfriend...he's just miles away and this sorta sucks. i love me some ian. :)

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So...this summer is off to a bad start. Jenn is gone, tess is leaving, i got dumped by somebody i thought i would have an amazing summer with, and i dont even know how i feel about any of this. I feel like im not even real anymore. i feel like this is all a dream and im waiting to wake up. I wish that things could go my way for once. I really hate ( Read more... )

ughhhh. i really dont know what i want to do with the rest of my life. I know it really isnt a big deal right now and i have all the time in the world but i just wish i had things figured out. I really want to drop out and just get some GED or something but i dont know enough information on it and i want to be able to go to college later when i ( Read more... )

So, this weekend my parents went out of town and it was a blast. I felt like i was free of everything. I felt like i was on my own and i didnt have to worry about a curfew or anything gay. I went out with my friends everynight. I spent a lot of time with Sloan and i feel like i know him a lot more than i ever did. I feel a lot more comfortable ( Read more... )

i wish that he could be as happy with me as i am with him.