the quiet sound of nothing ( Read more... )

No need to argue with myself at this moment. Yes I understand that a couple of people think I'm crazy, but I'm fine with that. No need to care what people think of me. I'm happy with the person I become. I understand that there's moments when I dislike myself, but all that eventually goes away. Anyways I'm heading to the doctors right now to get my ( Read more... )

So i been working at a new store ... and everything was good until today!@!! AHHH my till is fucken 10 dollars short ... thats what happens when you dont count your till in the beginning of your shift ... WTF!!! anyways ... i love my new store even though its slow as fuck!!!! but i need the time to relax from all the shit that happens everyday ... ( Read more... )

im sitting here wondering what did i do today ... not much ... i sleeped till 12 cause i was to lazy to go down to college so i can register ... but i got up and took a shower ... and yea .. i went walked to harbor college and realize how outta shape i am ... lol for someone so skinny i get tired fast ... i register and found out that i fucked up ( Read more... )

Right now i don't understand what i'm feeling. i feel so frustrated and just plain old angry. no respect in this place. everyone is there own human, and they don't care if what they do interferes with the others bubble. cant sleep at night cant sleep all day ... cause somethings always happen in apartment ones! i turn and scream and silence just ( Read more... )

life has good at some levels ... im happy in a way cause i have a job that appriciates me ... i have made friends on my own ... but its difficult to stay in track with life when emotions, work, and my surrounding all take up my time. i should be happy that i have a decent place to live. but once in a wild the wind tumbles everything down. jessica, ( Read more... )

i build a dream out of sorrow ( Read more... )

this fucked up days are coming back ... i feel all stupid and ignorant ... i could be just tired but i dont know ... everything is okay with my life ... just feel so fucken pathetic ... honestly i can compare my happiness to a cup of glass ... everyones glass (jessica's, carols, kt, bernie, eric ... etc) it fills to the top ... thats bliss, ( Read more... )

o things been good ... welfare sucks ... i think i lost it cause i been not going to those damn things and havent been going to therapy ... hahaha ... work ios good... starting to get the hang of it ... not that hard to make drinks ... hehe ... so i tried the new banana drink ... fucken good ... lol ... i wonder if carol went to church with the ( Read more... )

so everyone is out for the weeken, so i'm at my friends house, you know kicken' it. evveryone went to a show ... ihavent talked to chris for a while i wonder if he hates me. most likely i would hate myself to if i had the choose. so starbucks is a cool job, everyone is so nice ... hahaaah jeolous ... oh yes you are. my cousin hasn't written the ( Read more... )