bah humbug.

i swear, christmas has the potential to be so exciting and wonderful but everyone gets so caught up in things that do not matter, it is downright depressing.

when you finally get what you want, you go and lose what you had.

"forgive and forget"...easier said than done. right when you think you're over it..well here it comes...right back to haunt you some more. that whole forgetting thing is the key. forgiveness would be much easier if our memories weren't so good...

this summer is better than last summer, by far.
i am happy this summer.
i am happier now than i was 6 months ago.
happier than i was 5 weeks ago
happier than 8 days ago..
i am now a happy girl and it feels so good...
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...wow, i cannot believe i am almost done with my freshman year of college... i never thought i would be this old. i'm ready to go home. i'll be home saturday...YAAAAAAY!!!!! then i get about three weeks of summer, then classes and work begin. although, work will be alright, classes probably will too. but anyway ( Read more... )

wtf.? he asked me if he could use me. who does that? wow. great friend.

I AM STRESSED. omg.

...i am good at being mean to him. it's so easy. i probably hurt him more than i know, but for me it is some type of sick therapy. in hurting him, i forget how much i hurt. and while the "comfort" is only temporary, at least there is some window of relief. i only wish to be happy. i don't necessarily care the circumstances, as long as i am happy in ( Read more... )

well as far as dustin and i are concerned...we are over.  it is the end. i did it.  i am not going to talk about how much we "loooove" each other or how much fun it is to hang out..etc. we are beyond that. both of us. beyond the flirting and the late phone calls and dinner and movies etc.. everything happens for a reason. i believe that. i just am ( Read more... )

i cannot stand unnecessary drama. why do some people thrive on drama? i do not understand.

true statement : sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same....