it kills me to see the words that you have written ( Read more... )

hmm its been a good long night. and i just can't sleep. i've been thinking about a lot of stuff. so much is about to change. and i'm not sure i'm quite ready for it. i'm not sure how well i'm supposed to react to it all, but hopefully i can at least meet the expectations set. i just am an emotional person. things get to me. you get to me.i can't ( Read more... )

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so i love my new mychemicalromance cd. it loves me too. and i love how things are going right now. mmm i'm just so comfortable. and happy. cheerleading is going great. work is as fun as its always been. i'm finally starting to help out around the house. i've kicked some awful habits. and now, have someone to share my happiness with. and i love it. ( Read more... )

mmm these past couple weeks have been awesome. so awesome i can still taste it

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its coming from all sides of the shape ( Read more... )

i don't know where to start. so i'm just gonna say whatever i'm thinking, and if it doesn't make sense, oh well. i'm hurt so badly right now that i can't cry. i can't pretend any longer. and the minutes are turning into hours as i sit here contemplating the most recent events of my life. and it's killing me inside. i'm so scared right now. so ( Read more... )

i can't help it lately. i've just been so forthright with everyone that anything is say comes out a lot more rude than i intend. and if i hurt anyone's feelings, i'm sorry. i'm just so annoyed lately with everyone. it really doesn't matter who you are. within minutes i'll be angered to tears just by your mere presence. and i can't help it. i really ( Read more... )

why does this keep happening to me?? it's wonderful, and scary, and random and everything at once but always just, out of nowhere. and i'm left speechless, breathless, and i don't know what to think anymore. but all i can say is you are amazing. and i wish things didn't have to be like they are right now. with you, i feel so comfortable, and safe, ( Read more... )

good GAWD you suck ass you know that!!! i mean shit. do you have to lie so often? and what's worse, i KNOW you're friends are lying for you. b/c shit gets around. this is EXACTLY why i hate dating people in high school, unless they know how to be drama free and unless they're not scandalous like you. or sketchy. and don't deny it. you tell me ( Read more... )