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What is this incessant need to be tied down, to be worn out? To let emotions triumph over rationality, to drop everything you believe in and race into a smog of uncertainty? To feel completely asphyxiated and be not only okay, but thankful, when you emerge?

Do you want to break out of this callousness so much, even if the only way to feel is to hurt

For a loud communication student, I cannot believe how inept I am at expressing myself sometimes. I was frozen, because I was caught off-guard. You have no idea how many times I've beat myself up over that today. Did I just screw up, again ( Read more... )

From california I brought back a mishmash of unpacked items and raw emotions -  strewn across the room, where you should be. On certain days the latter seems even more tangible than the former; they rattle, composing a cacophony that keeps me up all night. On others they remain docile, but then the silence creeps in... the silence creeps in and the ( Read more... )

"Now you're straddling the state line; you're in two places at once."

Tonight I made the mistake of watching A Walk to Remember. Again. In my defence, it's one of those nights where you just wanna indulge in a sappy love story. You know, just to be able to tell yourself that you've not turned into this callous robot, just to see if you can still ( Read more... )

 
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We stayed over last night in Philadelphia International Airport, and currently we're still waiting to board the next flight back to Los Angeles. A man just came over to offer a pillow, and what looks like a sheet of foil -- the label reads "Emergency Blanket ( Read more... )

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I don't write anymore here, do I. Thoughts are either swishing around in my head, or physically penned into a ludicrously exorbitant leather notebook that I bought here. Maybe again, maybe soon.