so...Its Sept 11th,a Sunday, yet another natural disaster on the course of distruction (my freakn house man), major things are set into play, and Im sure its only begun. I feel as if Im constantly fighting myself, but its worth it; my friends and family are worth it as well. The Lord is worth it. In this battle, I fear that all will grow tired. ( Read more... )

Ahhhhh....what a day yesterday was! Well the day climaxed after Dwight was on the computer and stumbled across a file/pics on the hard drive. yeah fun stuff. I know that he doesnt want to hurt either but I understand that he thinks hes getting closure by this..after all I remember. As well as I rmember wanting nothing being kept from me either like ( Read more... )

Well today deserves a second entry....although I havent and dont intend to abandon hope, the way I feel today takes me back to how I used to be attitude wise long ago. The only difference thats dramatically helping is that I know what is wrong with me and I know to watch out for things. I feel dieased. I am irritated today as I was yesterday, but ( Read more... )

Ok...well, for starters I woke up yesterday feeling as if I had a hangover from the intoxication the Lord filled me with; bottom line, I was irratible yesterday and Dwight and I were not in sync as we usually are. Eventhough I spent the first part of the day in denial that my new outlook was over, but now I realize that the Lord was showing us the ( Read more... )

Morning. unfortunately I have not been able to update this in quite some time. So much to do, so little time...especially with trying to keep my witts about me. Dwight is my rock. He is my number one concern right now. We are having the best moments of our lives right now in our relationship and the future is guarenteed to far exceed any of our ( Read more... )

My first entry!K, just a reminder, I ramble.  Im pretty impressed with myself and feel as if Im kicking ass so to speak. I have warm "feel good" fuzzies right now for each step I take, each bridge I cross without burning, and each fence Im slowly but surely mending. I have come today to having the strength  to further my truthfulness by being open ( Read more... )