i dont know if i should act like i'm ok

or show that i'm hurt

this is fucking stupid

i'd like to make an addition to my new year's resolutions

1. no drink
2. no sex
3. forget you

i'll start on thursday

i think i'm willing to try anything
to make me stop missing him

it is completely irrational to hold on to something that isnt there
to have one sided feelings
i dont want to give up

ugh
i'm so indecisive

EDIT:
i just noticed the humor in the fact that i'm willing to try anything to stop missing him
except
call him
which could potentially make me stop missing ( Read more... )

maybe i've got this all wrong
maybe i need to lose the last thing i have left of him
in order to get over him

hmm...
i'm going out wednesday night
which i just realized is tomorrow night

we shall see
we shall see

You surprise yourself by showing someone how you really feel, or maybe by revealing an odd interest that others don't really understand, the good news is that the response is just about perfect.

i think a small part of me is trying to become something i'm not
to fit in with your lifestyle
because then maybe you'd want to work things out
yes, yes
i know how ridiculous that sounds
i cant remember what you smell like
and only ever so slightly how your lips taste when they're pressed against mine
i called you the other night
completely unsure of what ( Read more... )

writing here is helping me sort things out in my head
so i think i will continue to do so
it'll also be a nice log of the rollercoaster that is my life

last night my dad asked me to go get sugar to make tea
i was asleep at the moment and said i'd get up and do it later
so when 11 o'clock rolled around and i was getting ready to go to walmart
it was no ( Read more... )

damn
it isnt even thursday and i'm already rethinking this
[for the second time nonetheless]
maybe i'll just make the most of the next three days :)

1. no drink
2. no sex

there's only one exception but it's not someone something to worry about
it's like j pointed out
if i can say no to gucci
i must be serious
cuz damn
(and i mean damn)
but i didnt
because i guess part of me feels like whenever i get with someone else
i'll lose all that's left of him
yes, i have lost my mind
no need to ask
i even went so far ( Read more... )

this is the song you hear when you call my phone now :)

She left without leavin a number
Said she needed to clear her mind
He figured shed gone back to austin
cause she talked about it all the time
It was almost a year before she called him up
Three rings and an answering machine is what she got

If youre callin bout the car I sold it
If this is tuesday ( Read more... )