sunday is church we watched a montage of scenes from the passion of the Christ
they paired the movie with the song 'bring me to life' by evanescence
i've ALWAYS hated that song
until i listened to it in that context

Frozen inside without your touch,
without your love, darling.
Only you are the life among the dead.

All this time
I can't believe I couldn ( Read more... )

so i got my bestie (luv ya j!) to hijack my lj for a while
she went in and changed my password to lock me out of it
because i didnt have the will power to keep myself from browsing thru writings to a certain boy
which kept me in a sad state constantly

but now i think i'm finally REALLY getting over the situation
some...92 days since we've had a ( Read more... )

i'd never been there before
but the way the lights danced off the river made it beautiful
knowing that we were hidden in a secret place where no one would ever think to look for us
made it damn near romantic, despite how cold it was outside

on the ride home
the car next to us revved their engine at the red light
you pretended not to notice as we ( Read more... )

one of our female parts delivery people just brought a part in to me
and saw the picture of zi sitting on my desk
remarked about how cute he is and asked his age
'a year and a half' i told her
'oh, that your only one?' she asked
'yep'

'don't you think it's time for another one?'
my face hit the floor when she said that
i laughed it off
'gotta have two' she ( Read more... )

there was a line where there shouldnt have been

oh god, the aftermath

i hope your drugs write you letters while you're in jail

asshole

for the first time
in my entire history of relationships

i dont remember dates of anything
i've tried reading my own journal to get some sort of idea
but apparently i write some cryptic shit :)

so i guess i'm left here to wonder
why i gagged while brushing my teeth
and contemplate moving my desk into the bathroom because i pee so often i'm making a trail ( Read more... )

i cant believe i defended your dumb fucking ass when everyone said you werent shit ( Read more... )

i cant do this anymore

i'm giving up

what you do on your own time's just fine
my imagination's much worse

it was all a lie anyway

one

i was sitting at the computer in my mom's living room
not doing anything other than staring off into space as my little boy played
we were the only ones there and i was letting him get into things he probably shouldnt
when he walked over and handed me something
i extended my hand and gently took it from him without missing a step
and said the same ' ( Read more... )