got a new journal. added everyone that i pay the most attention to. if you want me to add you, just comment here. im out. its been good.

AND MAY I PLEASE SAY THAT I DONT REALLY LIKE THE FACT THAT GWEN STEFANI WISHES SHE WAS JAPANESE?? YOURE NOT ASIAN, BOB DAMN IT. GET OVER IT. YOU ARE A WHITE, SKINNY GIRL WHO SHOULD STICK TO SKA MUSIC WITH HER EX B/F AND THE BAND. NOT SONGS THAT TALK ABOUT STEREOTYPED ASIAN GIRLS WHO WEAR TOO MUCH RED LIP STICK AND BLUE AND PINK EYE SHADOW ( Read more... )

steves gf/ex gf/i dunno...is really cool. he is a big idiot. i am truly thankful that i dont have to go through the crying anymore or the hurting. sometimes i miss his jokes and his personality and then i think about the times he said hurtful things or the fights that were mostly my fault and i dont miss that other stuff. i feel bad for her =/ ( Read more... )

this morning i felt better, just lazier than yesterday. when i was putting my socks on i felt this sudden pain in my stomach and stopped everything i was doing. it hurt to just move....so i sat there for a few seconds and looked at the clock and i forced myself to get up and put my shoes on. i was in the car and i was thinking 'its just a stomach ( Read more... )

i left early today....all of the juniors were taking their practice ACT tests. and they will be taking them tomorrow too. i didnt want to get up this morning. i got to school and felt so miserable. i feel bad for being happy. and i shouldnt feel bad because when my friends are happy, i try to be happy FOR them and for their sake. so i went to 5th ( Read more... )

so i still miss him. chyeah ( Read more... )

i miss justin. i am the biggest girl ever. im going to make tomorrow sign day since i told noel id make him one. so the only people i could think of would want one are; lesley-because shes cool..duh.., josh, noel (obviously...), justin ( Read more... )

obviously i will not be going to night school tonight. im scared shitless....things dont work out for me and i know that this wont either. i still want to take the whole bottle of pills. i still dont like school. i know ms maeda doesnt care if any of us fail, even the ones who dont want to fail, she still doesnt care. shes the worst councelor ever ( Read more... )

before i say anything..i dont want anyone to say 'aw' or 'im sorry' or 'i know how you feel' because to be frank with all of you...i dont give a shit. right now i can only care about me. the only people i want support from are the people at school who need to work on this shit for me ( Read more... )

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