ive wasted so much on you. and you keep this wall up. everyday i try to break through it but no matter how hard i punch or kick, you just keep building these bricks up between us. i feel sorry for you. i feel even more sorry for myself. and i pity myself. thats it then...because you cant take anything serious, you have to disappear. that makes you ( Read more... )

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im watching ghost world...i got tired of watching the same movie for the past month. i do that because im too lazy to change the dvd...yeah. this morning i sat outside in my big fluffy coat and my pajamas and shoes and read my book..i dont know why i did that but i did. my mom came outside and brought me a blanket for my legs. and as i was reading ( Read more... )

it isnt the one that i wanted. and it isnt the 2nd one that i wanted either. but when i saw it i swear i almost fell out of my seat. there it is. ( Read more... )

i miss you. =(today i am going to go pick out my prom dress....so within the next few months im gonna be trying on the same dress..and im sure that by prom, im gonna be so sick of it. but it will be great. i dont follow traditions...thats why im wearing sleeves at different lengths with chucks. no heels. if i cant wear my shoes...im not going. and ( Read more... )

today i didnt go to school and i forgot to mention that in my post this morning. it doesnt really matter because today the grades go in so all we're doing is nothing and also all of the underclassmen are having programming done. like...theyre putting in the classes theyre taking for next year. i didnt go to school today because my dad had to go to ( Read more... )

there are so many posts that i gotta catch up on. so if i dont comment, dont get all pissy. i hate feeling like this. i feel stupid again.

today it snowed again. i cried during 5th period. i dont know why i did. i asked the girls who seem to know the most about guys: amanda, isabel and janiel. and all of them had the same answer for me which i was afraid of. christian and me are no longer friends and i dont want to hear a word about him from any of you who read this and know him. im ( Read more... )

today isabel said something to me in school when we were talking about our friend fernando ( Read more... )

whenever i get into a fight with my mom, she blames my dad for something...and it makes me feel bad because he didnt even do anything. it was all my fault. theres no reason to go and yell at him and make him feel bad...i asked her where my night school paper was and she started flipping out like "I DONT HAVE IT! I DIDNT TOUCH IT! I DIDNT THROW IT! ( Read more... )