Ugh so horse girl is now engaged to the other. And I know I know ugh I'm so not sure why it matters and why I care other than the fact that the other, the interloper, is an ass and doesn't deserve her or her love. He barely deserves to look at her. Ugh I should stop caring but as I've said I still love her. Always will and ill be here for her, ( Read more... )

So I overslept today kiddies. Which means I was late for work. So rough start to the day. No blonde one today she's sick. So I keep catching myself staring at horse girl. Which not fair to me at all cause it puts me in a mood and such but it's not fair to her either, especially if she should happen to Catch me. Ugh oh well

Nighty nightmares

Red

Yes the title of this is a fucking sound from Charlie Brown but who give a shit, fuck it, and as I said aaaaaaaaarrrrrrggghhhh. Oh in case you're wondering no kiddies I'm not ok. I'm having a rough time. It's hard for me to see them together and happy and smiling. She use to smile at me like that. And now she never even looks at me. Ugh what do I ( Read more... )

Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

That is all

All I can say is FUCK IT ALL!!!!!

So kiddies how is it that you can have an amazing day with an ok night then a decent day and a great night then a great start to the day with a decent ending and then a shit night where you don't sleep with a damn and you end up in a fight with you're spouse because of a friend then you have crap dreams which just make everything worse and then you ( Read more... )

Why my freaky darlings, does it always seem like I'm in a bad place when I come back here? I know the answer but I put this to you, if any of you still follow or care, why do you think I come here to this place when I'm in a bad place and seriously having issues?

Answers to come later.

Nighty Nightmares Darlings

Me

Ok kiddies it's been a good long while since I was in this shit space blog journal but apparently I'm no longer able to post my thoughts and feelings in my usual forums for outlet and well here I am back on lj hoping that here I don't get pissed and moaned at when I post a random little blurb about my wife and her boyfriend or my girlfriend and a ( Read more... )

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I always seem to fuck up somehow don't I. Every fucking time. Why me? Why do i do it i ask? Well i don't fucking know i just get scared i guess i want to die. thats the long and short of it i guess, i just want to die i always fuck up and can never sem to learn from my mistakes. What the fuck is wrong with me? Please help me, anyone.