well its been years since i last posted anything here. fuck it, no one can give any advice that merits a really meaningful response from me. I'm tired of being alone. My biggest fear being alone. and i live it everyday. maybe thats why im a "slut" "whore" or whatever anyone wants to call me. i cant stand being empty and alone, maybe thats why ill ( Read more... )

How come I'm not happy with me? I'm 21 tomorrow, my bestfriends are here for the holidays and my birthday. The girl I love, I don't think she loves me. She wants me to change, basicly, everything about me. I have to be jacked and ripped, I have to be like I was in high school, the worlds biggest prick. She's not happy with the man I am now. But I ( Read more... )

Everything should be all smiles in my world, but sitting here I feel like I'm getting over emotional. I don't know what I'm feeling, but I feel like i just want to breakdown and cry, thinking about it makes it worst. I enjoy my job, I have great friends, I'm getting my bills all paid(slowly), and I'm usually happy. Tony and my Bar & Grill / Indoor ( Read more... )

I NEVER FUCKING LIE. SO FUCK YOU. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE. I FUCKING DARE YOU TO TELL THAT SHIT TO MY FACE, CAUSE I SWEAR TO GOD I WILL KNOCK ALL YOUR TEETH OUT. STILL DON'T BELIEVE ME ASK JOSH OR NEXT TIME OPEN YOUR FUCKING EARS. PEOPLE CALL ME AN ASSHOLE YES, BUT I AM NOT A FUCKING LIAR. DON'T EVER BOTHER POSTING TO THIS. IF YOU HAVE ANYTHING TO SAY ( Read more... )

I finally got a cell(portable tracking device). 370-8611 Give me a call whenever, preferably after 9pm. About fucking time I got one. I know it's hard to get a hold of me. ~B

So, I've just been kinda chilling since i got home this morning from Barry's. When I came home my new pet was here. A Leopard Gecko. Rock On! It came with everything, from a tank to live food. I set that up. Crickets are kinda soothing. CHEERP CHEERP! He still needs a name. Any suggestions ( Read more... )

South Carolina? Nova Scotica? Here? Where am I to go? I'm sick of people... 12 years, and you don't know me....Who are you? I'm so sick of the same old same old in this town. I'm sick of the same faces, the same nothingness. ~B

The grey ceiling on the earth ( Read more... )

I'm feeling that pain again. I want to breakdown and cry. But some unknown force is holding me up. I'm thinking about it a lot. Why can't I ever have that thing called love... Why am I forsaken. I'm buried under miles of pain, why won't anyone set me free... ~B

This is the first time in months that I've been like this and I hate it.

Long time no Update. I've been ok. Got fired, but i don't care besides the fact i have no money. Going to prom. I listened to a song, and it instantly reminded me of her. I love the fact that just talking to her makes me smile. And of all of you who know me, smiling is a rare thing from me. I mean like really honestly smiling, the kind that you ( Read more... )