I want to find my brother. This is NOT a metaphor or a joke. I want to know who he is, and where he is. I want to met him. I've known about him for a long time now. I just can't handle the fact that I can't know a brother of mine. He was given up at birth. Not many of you know this. It means a lot to me. All I know is that his name is Shawn, and ( Read more... )

Here's the sad pictures of the Morgan which in now named Lucky:

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I am going to post some pictures of MY horse(TOMORROW). I came home tonight to find out that I am the owner of a horse. It's not good news. She is near death. I have to make this horse live. She will die if I don't save her. This is a burden that I wasn't expecting, and don't need. But I am going to do everything I can for this horse.... Beware ( Read more... )

Well, tonight was fun. Hung out with Stacey. We went shopping, by "we" I mean I watched her go shopping, with her friend Diane. Diane left and we continued to shop. After we left the mall we went to Elm St. and walked the strip. Fun Fun, hit up the sex shop. Ummm Yeah! I don't really like that place. It was kinda, well, umm, boring and kinda gross ( Read more... )

I feel like I was born into the wrong family. I have never felt like I was part of a family. I feel so out of the loop in everything. I never hear the, "I love you's", that other family's say to each other. All I ever hear is the, "Fuck you's", and the constant blaming. Where is my real family. I know that my friends are my family, but where is ( Read more... )

FUCK IT, I HAD A GOOD POST BUT THERE IS A BIG GOD DAMN SPIDER IN HERE. I don't know where it is. It's gone. HELP. I FUCKING HATE SPIDERS! Oh Shit, Oh Shit, Oh Shit, Oh Shit! It's Huge. I'm just saying that, it is so FUCKING big. It's going to eat me.

At this moment I can honestly say that the thing I love them most, which is love, I hate. I hate love. I can't think clearly. I can't stop it. It hurts more than any pain I could self induce. It hurts more than those moments where it feels like my heart is exploding from within. I don't want this. I don't want to love. I am afrain of it. I don't ( Read more... )

I have rediscovered S.O.A.D. I am so happy. Yea, today was different. I helped Corissa get ready for prom. Yes, I helped. I helped with make-up, and jewelry. And her pose for pictures. She looked absolutely smashing. I'm kicking myself for not bringing our new digital cam. But I did take some pictures on her mom's disposable. When her date, James, ( Read more... )

I think it's time that I sit down and tell myself the brutal honesty. I have to cope with the fact that it is over. There is nothing more I can do, I shouldn't keep being in love with someone who shows no emotion towards me, anymore. I don't mean this to be an insult to you, Kayla but it is my realization. I have come to see that you are more ( Read more... )

I am strangely comfortable with the fact that I was so clear minded. It was odd, but I didn't feel all depressed, or anything. My mind was in another area. With all of the "Love Stories", we watched (Don Juan De Marco, Romeo + Juliet, The Notebook, and Love Accually) I didn't think about her or get depressed about the situation. Even though I am ( Read more... )