day that started good ended up shit. had plenty of jenna problems, i do or dont have a girlfriend anymore. i was a bad friend, which i feel more guilt about than i feel bad about jenna situation. shit sucks. god i have so much fucking shit to say but its like all my thoughts are jumbled into a ball and just cant come out. i give up.

I emailed a guy about a job on saturday, got a call at around 10:30am this morning and interviewed at 11:00am. I have to go back for a second interview whenever they call me. The guy that interviewed me seemed really cool, i think i could really like working there. its a normal day shift which would be bad ass. its close to my house which just adds ( Read more... )

im feeling extremely unwanted today. its a horrible feeling. i really hate the way i am sometimes. there isnt anything wrong with the way i am other than the fact that i bend over backwards for people who really dont care too much about me. i missed her very much. i passed on the opportunity to hang out with her friday because i thought she was ( Read more... )

its my birthday. i feel pretty good today. i feel the need to get a little drunk tonight. but not too drunk. i dont want to be a mess, and i also dont want to puke and pass out before i get the chance to have sex. my mind has been relaxing lately. it makes me worry, if i get relaxed i might let myself slip or something. what do i know? i think i ( Read more... )

so i found myself feeling very fucking frustrated and annoyed with things lately. i got a lot of shit out and i feel soooooo much better. i really need to not hold things back as much as i do. when getting things out i instantly felt better and it was like all of my issues were resolved. i was having some trust issues which i think are fucking ( Read more... )

wow so much has been going on in my life. i feel the best ive ever felt. love catches you when you arent expecting it at all. i couldnt ask for anything more in my life right now. im surprised to have found something like the relation i have where i found it but its a feeling like nothing before. im expierencing things at a level of intensity i ( Read more... )

even though my account was dormant for a while. im just feeling the best i have felt in a very long time. its good to know i can be happy all on my own. i was getting a little too nostalgic for a while. ive decided i need to concentrate on moving forward instead of looking at the past, in all aspects of my life. well someone entirely random from my ( Read more... )

if we were brought together for a reason what is that reason?

love conquers all i believe it now show me.

where is this life taking me now?

and why the hell do i feel so damn good about this strange situation?

its like falling for a sworn enemy and being thrilled about every second of it.

from now on i need to stop holding myself back. i dont know where all my confidence went but i need to get it back asap. i have reconnected with someone who used to be a big part of my life its nice. it makes me feel better. work was good today. i hope my life continues to improve. i hate being set off by things. i told a lie the other day. i think ( Read more... )

today was a pretty good day. work was good. i really needed a day like that at work. im a little aprehensive about my potential move. im fairly certain i will go through with it. im to sleepy to put anymore sentences together. i hope im not a waste.