sbeen awhile since i posted as if anyone on this site really cares but ive had no reason to post. plus i was out of the country for a month. Things are surprisingly good. I start school soon and.... really i dont know why im doing this anymore, so thisll prolly be my last post on this journal. if u actually read this and want me to continue, then ( Read more... )

well ive realized, with the help of a friend of my friend that i am an asshole. my whole f*cking life is a lie. i lie to every one i meet and i only seem to make their problems worse. ive been thinking that i wish i could die, alot more often recently, and this only confirms a reason why i should. the only problem is im afraid to. i want to die, ( Read more... )

lifes gotten pretty crappy here. I wanna leave this state SO badly but i gotta wait 2 more yrs and im not sure if i can. I really cant stand my current situation in Md I just want to leave and never come back. Theres nothing in MD to keep me here. I wanna leave so dam badly.. the rest of this lj entry would prolly just be random pointless crap ( Read more... )

well i dont know how many i have i mean i dont think i can tell who r really friends and who r just leading me on and stuff. i mean i guess i have one or two close friends but one ish my gf and the other is..a girl. no real guy friends, is that odd? and also i do have a close friend online i know. she is actually closer to my heart than ne one else ( Read more... )

well right now im tryin to hold it in as wel as i can. i mean ever since i was a kid i had anger problems so as i grew up i sealed it up inside and it slipped out almost never but these days it slips out more and more often. i mean i was havin a pretty bad fight with a former friend and i just couldnt keep it in. i know ur not supposed to keep it ( Read more... )

well this is my first live journal on mah new sn. i dont know how often ill update but ill try to do it when something important happens. ne ways id just like to say Hi and stuff and that life is pretty crappy for me. like in my bio the only girl/person i desperately want in my life is out of my reach right now, and im risking my life, sanity, and ( Read more... )