Things don't ever seem to go my way when I want them to. When I am not looking that's when things seem to go ok, but how am I supposed to train myself to pretend as though I don't care about what I am going crazy over ( Read more... )

Ok so they say...that today is the beginning of the rest of your life...I love it...sure it is...but I am writing this to prepare myself for something much bigger than myself. Bless us who are about to die, because we spend way too much time trying not too. I read...some Thomas Dylan yesterday and I am have a new sense of self-worth...I am going to ( Read more... )

Ok...here we are on a Friday and I am thinking again, which always manages to get me into some sort of trouble. I am thinking about this guy...I like him...sure I do...I was with him once before, he's 27 and I am 21, but here's the thing...I can't find the fucker, I am not one of the people who go head over feet for someone...I am fine not to ( Read more... )

I feel so rich today...not with money...that would be a joke and very misleading...I try not to mislead myself...though it's hard, because I was raised to the effect that if I wanted something I would ask. It wasn't so much a question about the needs of others.

Being on my own and poor has taught me lots of things...because when I had everything ( Read more... )

Holy cow...the first of November and I am starting my former boss' day off with some bad news. I quit...I am just tired of everything and in the process of trying to make everything else brand new. I want a new place, a new job, and just a fresh start. I want to just detach myself from everything that I feel negative about and move the hell on. I ( Read more... )

I am sitting in my office today and our residence idiot walks in and decides to discuss out in the open why he doesn't like Caretta Scott-King. Well he didn't want to tell, because it would offend someone in the office (he looks at me). He says that he doesn't like Caretta, because she supports gay marriage and that's not what her husband Dr. ( Read more... )

This is the breaking of the cherry for my journal and I am hoping that it is easier than all of the other journals that I have attempted to make in the past and then forgot about, because things weren't that vital to talk about. I celebrated my 11th month anniversary of being "out" last night. I wasn't going to drink anything, but then my mom ( Read more... )