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Kink Me! #4

Jul 31, 2009 22:14

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anonymous September 29 2009, 23:58:12 UTC

Arthur/Merlin, modern AU, Arthur is in the closet and in denial of his homosexuality until he meets Merlin.

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Re: No one else to find (6/?) Warning homophobia brunettepet February 15 2011, 00:44:46 UTC

You're doing an excellent job describing Arthur's over monitored, over controlled life in this small town. His life really isn't his own. Uther has made it quite clear what he expects his son to be. Merlin's reaction to that New Year's Eve "date" makes me think Merlin had some expectations of his own. I can't wait to see what happens next.

Re: No one else to find (6/?) Warning homophobia anonymous February 15 2011, 02:19:03 UTC

Oh my god, their love <333

Re: No one else to find (6/?) Warning homophobia anonymous February 20 2011, 17:29:33 UTC

Oh, I love this so much! Really hope there'll be more, I'm dying to know what happens next! :D

No one else to find (7/?) Warning homophobia anonymous February 23 2011, 15:37:20 UTC

Thanks for your comments! Here's the next part.Feeling faintly absurd in his tuxedo, Arthur clears a space on the long bench beside the kitchen table and watches Merlin as he drifts around, plucking cups and spoons from the chaos. It strikes him, suddenly, that he would never do something like this at home. He and Uther rarely have time for casual conversation, and when they do, he always makes sure Arthur isn't at a loose end for long ( ... )

No one else to find (8/?) Warning homophobia anonymous February 23 2011, 15:39:12 UTC

Arthur's mind starts to spin. They've danced around this before, but putting it into words is different. Now that it feels like there might be an alternative, he doesn't know if he does want to stop pretending, even just to one person. All he wants to do now, really, is leave; it's taking all his willpower not to stand up and end this conversation ( ... )

No one else to find (9/?) Warning homophobia anonymous February 23 2011, 15:40:54 UTC

Merlin seems to understand that the last thing Arthur wants right now is comfort or sympathy or anything that will make him feel more raw than he already does. Instead, he gets up and goes to the kitchen, and returns with what appears to be a bottle of champagne ( ... )

No one else to find (10/?) Warning homophobia anonymous February 23 2011, 15:45:19 UTC

When Merlin looks up at him and licks his lips, Arthur nearly loses it. He bites down a moan, but it comes out anyway, a rough, strangled gasp. He knows he should shut his eyes or move away, anything to stop him wanting this so much, but he doesn't and finds himself staring into Merlin's questioning eyes ( ... )

Re: No one else to find (10/?) Warning homophobia anonymous February 23 2011, 16:08:10 UTC

Oh man, I am so in love with this fic, and the cliffhanger with Uther has me biting my nails for Arthur! Please update soon! ♥

Re: No one else to find (10/?) Warning homophobia anonymous February 23 2011, 20:58:17 UTC

Great update.

Re: No one else to find (10/?) Warning homophobia brunettepet February 24 2011, 01:38:13 UTC

Merlin being so matter of fact opened an emotional floodgate that must have been building in Arthur since the first moment he realized he was attracted to boys. The intense emotions are beautifully written. This has my heart in my throat, Anon.

Re: No one else to find (10/?) Warning homophobia anonymous February 24 2011, 03:48:19 UTC

Oh, bless bb!Arthur. I love confident Merlin, and oh, I hope he can be a comfort to Arthur as he tries to figure himself out.

Re: No one else to find (10/?) Warning homophobia anonymous February 24 2011, 12:50:48 UTC

Amazing update! I'm so hooked by this story!

Re: No one else to find (10/?) Warning homophobia anonymous March 3 2011, 23:45:23 UTC

my heart is breaking <3 I love this story so much.

No one else to find (11/?) Warning homophobia anonymous March 4 2011, 14:30:42 UTC

Thank you for your comments! x
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Uther's waiting for him when he gets in. He doesn't say anything at first, just looks him up and down slowly, before issuing a curt goodnight. Arthur watches from the hallway as his father disappears up the stairs, at a loss for what to think, let alone say.

It feels worse, in a way, than if Uther had demanded to know where he'd been. He's edgier now, knowing that although his transgression hasn't been addressed, it's been noted, and it won't be forgotten.

Arthur knows he might as well forget sleep for a while. He goes into the kitchen, and as he sits alone at the table, something ugly takes hold of him and he feels his hands start to shake. He tries to fight it. He doesn't want to be angry with Uther, who's spent his life taking care of him, but still, he can't help resenting how easily his father can do this; how he can turn something that was starting to feel a little bit brilliant into something that he feels ashamed of, with just a look and a word ( ... )

No one else to find (12/?) Warning homophobia anonymous March 4 2011, 14:36:31 UTC

Even though Uther doesn't mention it again, his behaviour towards Arthur changes almost immediately.

Each minute outside the house needs to be justified, and any activity Uther disapproves of is vetoed. One night, Uther calls him into his study and spends an hour going through every number on Arthur's phone bill until they're all accounted for. Uther's been opening his mail for years, so that's nothing new. Arthur's not quite sure how long he's been checking his browsing history, but he's never been stupid enough to have left anything incriminating.

It's not as if Uther didn't keep a close eye on him before, but now it feels like the walls are closing in on him. It wouldn't have been so bad if Merlin hadn't been part of the equation, not that it would matter either way, as he can't change things. Short of turning Uther into a completely different person, he thinks, but he doesn't want that, not really. It's unfair to think that when knows how impossible it would be to change who he is ( ... )

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