Why must I be treated the way I am? My parents are never satisfied with what I am. My younger brother does nothing but abuse me. School has become hell for me. And the suicidal thoughts have come more often and often. Make them all stop. Everything. Every single thing that hates me. I thirst for blood sometimes. I don't know why I'm this way now. ( Read more... )

I have nothing to do. Nothing to live up to. Nobody to care for... And the people I hate won't leave me alone... All I want is someoen that actually cares about me... Someone who will hear my words, my cries. Wipe my tears. Read my words. Feel my pain... But no... There is no one out there for me... No one who cares... I once wrote the words " ( Read more... )

What the hell...... I'm being abused by my own little brother... And I can't do anything about it because my mother would kill me and never believe me when I say that Robbie started it... That little fucking pest is nothing but another spoiled brat... I hate him... I hate all of them... My parents, my brother, everyone... Nobody cares... I wouldn't ( Read more... )

Why can't my parents trust me? Nobody trusts me... They think I'm a liar... They are the liars... I am better than that. But I'm sick and tired of all this over protectiveness and boredom. I'm locking myself in my room because I have nothing to do! What else is there... I have no life. No responsibilities. No social life. No freedom. WHAT ELSE IS ( Read more... )

Am I really a human being? Or am I just some toy... My brother acts as if the whole world revolves him, especially me... He uses me for the most stupidest things... I was never born just to escort him to the fucking kitchen which is probably 15 steps from his fucking room... I'm not some person that has no value... I have feelings and nobody ( Read more... )

I'm tired of this. Tired of everything that I've done. I carry the weight of everyone I know. And yet I still hang on. I've done too much for other people. People that don't even understand the real me. And what do I get in return? Pain. Pain from other people's mistakes. Why must I be punished for what other people have done? Am I just a human ( Read more... )

Today's entry in my computer journal ( Read more... )

Just some thoughts for today ( Read more... )

I bought a Groove Adventure Rave manga a few days ago and now I'm in love with the anime. Gues I should ask Taka to download the song for me...

All I wanted for myself was to be with someone that truly loved me. Someone to hold me close and tell me that I'll never be alone again. Someone to show me what it's like to live life to it's fullest. My life seems to have no purpose without that someone ( Read more... )