This is sort of like a rant. I'm sorry ( Read more... )

I'm so fucking stressed right now it's not funny.  I'm stressed and depressed and I hate it ( Read more... )

Things are good right now.  Amanda got me a job at the place she works and as far as I know I'm fulltime there now.  We worked as servers at a wedding banquet last night, and this week with the exceptions of Monday and Thursday I'm working as a waitress in the bar & grill there.  Saturday is another banquet.  I'm really excited about this, since it ( Read more... )

I feel like a worthless, utter piece of shit today. I'm not really sure why, I just wake up feeling this way sometimes, and I can't shake it. I get trapped in my own headspace, wondering how I'm ever going to amount to anything, wondering how long people will mourn for me after I pass away. I'm not ESSENTIAL to anyone. People who have needed me ( Read more... )

So, who has two thumbs and is currently without a boyfriend?

This chick.

I'm very very sad.

But at least it was mutual.  No fighting.  No hurt feelings.

Just a lot of sadness.

Hello journal.  I haven't written to you in a while.  I won't apologize, but I'll try to be better ( Read more... )

I suppose I ought to add my story to the thread, since I've been here a few months ( Read more... )

I broke tradition and didn't write the recap on the day I got back, which was yesterday.  In fact, i don't really feel like writing it now.  I'll write later or something.

There are six (five after midnight) days left until I get to see Nik again.  This week will be the worst.  I still have to pack, still have clothes to wash, still have my bed to make, still have my room to clean, still have vacuuming to do.  I'll have plenty of things to do this week, but I expect it to go by so slowly.  Heather is ...  making ( Read more... )

Today I got to hang out with my Mom.  We went in to Houghton Lake like we were supposed to do on Saturday.  The two of us stopped at the sporting goods store called Dunham's and checked out their swimsuits.  I had to try a ton of them on, since their sizes were completely bizarre.  The first two wouldn't go over my hips, the third barely made it.  ( Read more... )