It's been a week.

The longest week of my life. Or pretty damned close to it.

I've been following my mom's advice and "keeping busy" to keep my mind off of him, but it just isn't working.

I hate you, December. And I hate you too, Tennessee, for being so ridiculously far away.

I'm not even really looking forward to Christmas.

This really

I've been home a few days now, but that doesn't mean that I feel any better. True, I haven't cried as much over the last few days, but there's this eerie sort of calm/numbness that's bothering me. I want to sit down and cry, but I just can't do it. My family has been rather supportive over the whole thing (with the exception of my sister, who ( Read more... )

I'm back from Tennessee. It was awesome and fabulous and fantastic, and also a little sad.

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I've packed once already. I'll unpack tomorrow (today, since it's 2AM) and repack again, to make sure I have everything. And to make sure it all fits. I'm excited and nervous, but this week can't pass by quickly enough. Also, my mom spent a good ten minutes on the phone the other day talking to my aunt Debbie about how I wasn't going to be ( Read more... )

Random Conversation Snippets:
“I got the third degree from your grandma, “Have you met this boy, is he good, why are you letting her go?” I told her that I’d met him, and she was like, “Oh, well I did meet him too,” and then I said, “He seems nice, very decent. I don’t know what he sees in her, he could do a lot better…”

“DAADDD.”

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So, I guess I'm really done talking to Jason.  I've tried multiple times over the past week to message  him and just be like, 'Hey, how are things, what's up, how are you doing?"  And he just gets all short on me and then, after two or three lines, leaves, or says he "doesn't feel like talking."  Last night he got on Messenger, we had a short ( Read more... )

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So, Heather spent the weekend with Laura.  I had Rob over.  Jordan and Manda ended up being here, too.  Which is good, because I really didn't want to be all alone on Halloween weekend with nothing to do.  I guess we didn't really have much fun (we barely played SSBB, didn't watch Sweeney Todd (again), played no Pokemon, etc.), but it was way ( Read more... )

So, I had "the talk" with Jason, in which I told him that we couldn't be More Than Friends.  And he took it...  ridiculously well.  Like, I'm still perplexed.  He was just like, "okay."  And I was all, "...that's it?  No arguing, bitching, moaning, complaining?  Just okay?"  And he was like, "Well what did you expect?"  And I was like, "...Nothing ( Read more... )

Friday was the longest day of my life, I swear.  I got up at 10AM, far too excited to sleep in.  I ran around and did chores around the house; swept, cleaned out litter pans, vacuumed, dusted, etc, with Mom and Jordan's help.  Jordan fangirled with me over the fact that Nik was going to be visiting.  I took a shower, made sure my room was ( Read more... )