Colplay - Violet Hills ( Read more... )

I wish I felt like this was the second worst day of my life.

But theres hope. Alot of it. I might not see her again. Ever. But I think I will.

Im busy but im good. The weekend was good. Least good company. I can be in hell, but with good comapny all is good. Im not as temporamental as I am on here. Apparently I am hard to read. But I feel as though Im easy to read. After a comment today, I think the secrets out. Least to one person. But probably all the girls know. Im pretty sure. I dont ( Read more... )

I should be writing my article, but my missed place confidence tells me I will do it tommorow. I never thought about being a journalist. Caroline would hate it I think, but least I wont be bored writing it. I started it yesterday. Its full of my random shit, but louis likes it.

Over the last 5 days I learnt something. Love is a fickle bussiness. my problem is attach something within me to that fickleness, which is my own fickleness. I can literally feel my heart open and close. but really I  shouldn#t care so much. I should just let everything be. I can#t close it. But to get it, I think I will have to close it. I am weak ( Read more... )

I borrow from the past. I look to future. Because I am scared of the now. Past doesn't exist, future doesn't exist. Now, the only thing that does exist is the now. So I shouldn't ignore it. I should recognise, that I can only ever live in it. Now is temporary. It is measureless. It is singular. It is endless. It is beyond the confines of the brain ( Read more... )

Thats the philosphy of life I should follow and maybe am. I dont know. Apart from and since the obvious years ago I havent been dealt major blows, or been cheated. Death is the only blow I think I would count as a major blow though. Nion everything else I feel I can be graced to conquer. I had stayed quite about stuff for along time ( Read more... )

This song reminds me when I was in the bay 2003, which was when I got this on cd. Though I was in green and creme, surburbia. The only thing I was scared of, was the the wasps nest next to the pool. I might still have his cd somewhere.

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The second one, has abit of a 80's british punk vibe.

We all see the world from our narrow perspectives. No mater how much we try to expand them, in the universal sense it can only ever be a very narrow perspective. In a tangible sense someone with a 1 degree perspective would know as much worldly knowledge (porportionally) as 60 million people. Im probably not making sense, but I understand what Im ( Read more... )

And when I used to go to visit, I could feel it ( Read more... )