sweating so badly
creeping so quitly
deathly grasp
it has come......

i have to quit cigerettes for my health.

hold in each hand
which one is held dearly
closer

i hate life

smoke til my lungs colapse

alriht..alright..i havent written in this in so long..and right now i dont have much to say.. i talked to my x...and i feel great...today ..i wanted to spend my day doing something...cuase it was someone i love..it is her bday..and i did..i spent it with my x..and i feel it was time worth spending..and i want to do it again ..............sometime.

I wish I had the strength to do what I believed.. I wish I had the strength to not make myself bleed. Do not have the power to do what I desire. I do not have the power to show how I feel. I count hours that could have been used.. but were so wasted.. Time is not the problem.. I am.. Why can’t I change? Why can’t I be the person I want to be? Why ( Read more... )

Im defenitly tired and out of energy. Im so sick of people always telling me how i feel.. or that i dont care.. or telling me.. when i say something .. it means something else.. im just tired.. im hurt by what people have been doing to me.. they way they have been treating me.. but i really dont have much to say.. life sucks.. evrything gets better ( Read more... )

im so tired.. i was puking in the bathroom.. groos.. some one help me?

im so tired.. out of breath ( Read more... )

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magically ... in my eyes.. everything has changed ( Read more... )

the world just stopped.
i lost everthing...
everything is shit
everyone is
fuck you yeah thats right