Since when did emotions... feelings... get so complicated. When did it go from crying because I am sad to crying because my heart is breaking and my head is pounding and I don't know what to do? When did emotional pain become physical pain? Why can't I make this stop? I have always been a little too emotional. Even for a girl. I cry because im ( Read more... )

The songs that they sing ( Read more... )

There's one thing I want to say, so I'll be brave
You were what I wanted
I gave what I gave
I'm not sorry I met you
I'm not sorry it's over
I'm not sorry there's nothing to save

Restless, uneasy, worried, maybe even paranoid are all words I would use to describe how I am feeling right now. Five weeks of this semester left and I am ready for it to be over and fast. This summer will be two online classes and one on campus which is fine. Im super annoyed with work, I'm not happy with the way my body looks and I can't seem to ( Read more... )

ANNOYED!!!!!!!!

I need a new job. I need to stop working at this damn place.

With twenty minutes till I need to leave for work, I feel the need to clear my head. I know that I am very unhappy with my working situation. But at the moment I'm terrified to even think of quiting because of how horrible the economy is and the likelihood of me finding another job doesn't seem very good. And then if I do get another job, who isn't ( Read more... )

So lately, in regards to finding someone to be with, I have been thinking not what can I contribute to them, but what can they give to me. As of late it seems "they" can give me nothing.I have decided I need to be ok with myself before I can dump all of my issues on someone else. Yeah, no ones prefect. But let me tell you, I'm not interested in the ( Read more... )

Saturday nights are typically full of fun and excitement. Being the loser that I am, I am sitting at home watching The Notebook(which makes me hate life) pouting about the fact that,yet again, because of work I missed out on two amazingly fun events. I envy the college students that don't have to work and take classes. I think many take it for ( Read more... )

Another lonely night, another boring weekend. So I guess I could be doing stuff for classes like reading and being on top of things, but really who does that? My latest obsessions are Tumblr and Bon Iver. Also my classes have convinced me that poverty is the result of capitalism and the only way to fix health care in the US is universal health care ( Read more... )

I haven't been able to cry in weeks, leave it to the movie Stepmom to leave me with tears striking down my face. I can't explain how I feel. I'm home, alone on a saturday night listening to the most beautiful music, wondering... How is this supposed to end? The reality is I'm alone. As much as it hurts to be without someone, I know that being with ( Read more... )