My life is so jumbled at the moment ( Read more... )

Wow I've noticed how lost in this world I really am at the moment. Adam wants nothing to do with me, Im being pushed away(like thats new). Things are over for him and I, though for reasons that I assume are my fault, like theres ever some chance things will be normal again? I feel lost playing cymbals... I have no idea where my brain goes during ( Read more... )

If people hate me, I wish they would tell me so. Just because I don't want to annoy them ( Read more... )

I can't get Adam to talk to me so fuck me for ever talking to somone knowledgeable again right ( Read more... )

Im back to old Manda ways where Im like "who the hell cares about your life issues, keep them to yourself". Honestly I hate reading the forums with people and their life problems. For fucks sake its the internet, get a life......I know that I need to!  I guess Im being cold hearted cause I feel all alone, I feel like im stuck back in the world of ( Read more... )

For some reason Iove sleeping on my sisters bed, its just so soft! Plus the cat slept with me for a while but apparently I move too much for her but whatever. Soooooooooooooo

Today is the day we are celebrating my cousins 6th bday! Im excited just because I love my family, they are all weird and its simply hilarious to listen to our conversations ( Read more... )

Its time to bring out the eraser, Im going to start new for the 324528 time in my life. Its sad I find guys on the site that treat me like im a baby, I wish they would die. They are so nice and complimentary it drives me insane. I thought I could go through October effortlessly but I cant even do the slightest thing right so I doubt I should risk ( Read more... )

I haven't felt this way for the longest time. I haven't felt like such a complete and total failure. Im lost, and I don't know what to do. Maybe I should take Nikki up on her offer, that'd just be so weird for me though.  Im falling apart and I don't know why. Everything that I've worked for in the past few months has been pointless. I wonder why I ( Read more... )

So my mother and I were at Concords Mills today and we stopped in Ralph Lauren to get some clothes.....

AND THEN SOMETHING EXCITING HAPPENED!!!!!!!!!! A French tour group came into the store and I learned 3 things.

1. French girls stand in the way of nice clothes (so I said excuse me in my wonderful french ...and they moved!).

2. All the French guys ( Read more... )

I slept 20 times better than the night before. Probably cause I told Jason that I am sick of his messages when he's drunk..........so Im mostly likely not going to see him again. Aside from feeling guilty, I don't want to hang around a growing beer belly anymore.  I can't wait til school starts so I can finally stop wasting away and commit to ( Read more... )