I have found that I am awfully jealous of what I can't have. I hate knowing I developed a relationship with someone thats nothing more than a phone call every so often to meet up with each other for only a few variations of activity, yet I hear about his rendez-vous with other girls and deep down I want that. I don't get to do anything and theres ( Read more... )

Okay so  Im done with my first year of college and Im glad that its over with. Anywho Im sort of frustrated for the fact that a friend of mine is doing better than me but Im techinally smarter than her. Maybe Im jealous I wasn't as fortunate with professors and guessing the correct answers. Anywho Im just a little upset over that but it will all be ( Read more... )

I of ficially am tired of my life but I will forever be this lonely single person. I love how people com in and take my job opportunities because they think they are so awesome and know-it-alls when in reality I can't stand them and they are blooming idiots. I love how apparently Im so dull and ugly that Im repuslsive to men. I also love how I have ( Read more... )

 Well my news years goal is to get in shape, I don't have to lose weight but I want a healthy lifestyle. Its hard though at the moment cause I fractured my foot. I think it will workout though (no pun intended).

Well, things are back to normal im sure im the same girl in his eyes when we don't see each other. When with him this time it felt so different, but in a good way. Now theres that wall up again it feels that prevents so much.  

Well, I've decided that I never want to go north. I hate all this cold weather, it drives me insane. Charleston is a little bit warmer though, warmer than Western. OH but holy shit I have a gpa of a 3.61! Already and I didn't even do well in one class but still a 3.6 thats better than 4 years of high school to get a 3.4!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Im ( Read more... )

 Can I not be what anyone desires? Im smart..at all the wrong things, Im pretty only when I smile, Im giving, and obediant. Or maybe Im just looked over? Or maybe Im already classfied as hopeless. I do lack common sense I suppose, sometimes.

Im too tired to even think and I got more than enough sleep....ugh

 Honestly I think Im a huge wuss when it comes to pain. I rather suffer though, than sacrafice other things. I was always the deathly ill child still going to school and the school itself would send me home. Here I am with good drugs but limiting myself to them so I can still do class work despite how much pain im still in ( Read more... )

So my life at the moment.....

Band is amazing, Im enjoying it so much. I adore the guys that Im with they make the day better with their jokes. The show is awesome andthe crowd loves it,I enjoy performing so much! I feel like I lay everything out and people just take it in, what an exciting feeling. It reminds me of dancing, I hate that I quit ( Read more... )

Why do I feel so horrible that he's met someone else? Why does it eat me up so bad when all I want to do is forget anything ever happened between him and I? Why am I acting immature about this, why do I want her to feel what I felt while I was with him. I don't want to be alone, I want her to see how much I felt like crap. Sadly knowing me, things ( Read more... )