i can feel the old me coming back. and it's about damn time. i was having so much fun and everything felt so right when we were wrestling on his bed. and i realized how much i really do love him...for everything. and i think im starting to trust again, and have faith in someone. he can love me. and he won't hurt me and im slowly starting to realize ( Read more... )

this is a war. and i am going to win it.

i've come to the conclusion that i have no choice but to fight back, because if i don't, this will never end.

oh, and i'm alot stronger than you think. mentally and physically. idiot.

xoxox

oh, and baby. thank you for everything. i love you so much, even through our craziness.

and i don't care how much of your time school and work is taking up, i'll always be here. we will make it work, if i have to stay up till one in the morning every night to help you, i will. i love you william joseph staeb <3

xoxox

i used to be a different person. i used to trust. i used to love without second thought..

i used to never be scared..
i hate this.

goodnight.

xoxox

some people claimed that they were going to change, that they would become better. four people to be exact.

..and every single one of them lied. they are all still exactly the same.

pathetic.

xoxox

ok. i am officially sick. i didn't hear my phone ringing this morning. wow. that means that i should be in the hospital or something...lol. jk. but seriously, i feel like crap. i can't wait to see him, hopefully i'll feel better by the time he gets here. well...at least i feel better than yesterday...its weird how much my stomach hurts right now, ( Read more... )

omgggg, my nose won't stop itchinggg and my throat is sore. it's driving me crazy..i'm not sure if it's just a cold or if i have allergies. It's driving me crazy though, i'm waiting for baby to get out of work. We're just going to hang out as his house tonight and watch a movie or something. I hope i feel better tomorrow cause we're going to beach ( Read more... )

mmhmm, it's been awhile again. Baby is back and that makes me so happy, i got to be greedy and have him all to myself ( Read more... )

i love both of my ali/aly's
they are the best ever.

<3

alysha & alicia
i love you so much :)

everyone else, thank you for everything<3

1st place...ohhh yesss, i love that feeling.

the beach was nice yesterday..but i couldn't stay long because I had work. Then today turned out much better with my victory. :-D but then after that, i had to go to work again, lol.

I talked to will today. do i love him? mhhmm. sooo much. :-) i cannot believe he left for five days..came back for one ( Read more... )