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i cry and curse when i'm alone

i laugh and flirt when you're on the phone

i just discovered i am taking the strongest doseage of my anti depressants. how the hell did that happen? i didn't even know! and i also was told they were anti anxiety/ depression, but they're just anti depression. weird. i've found because of my side effects that they are actually causing me to be worse off. it's the reason why i have fucking ( Read more... )

i feel like i'm failing every time i wake up. why?

all i want to do is help everyone and make everyone happy. if one person isn't happy, i've failed. FUCK.

you left me. you left me with more shit to come. more shit for me to deal with, moreshitthanintheboxesyouleftmecryingnexttoattheendofmydriveway.

go
to
hell.

and i decided:

i will be happy in the end.
everything is going to work out and all i have to do is try.

i can fucking do this shit man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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yesterday i was driving during sunset, and my windows were down, and my hair was blowing. it was amazing. i love life, i love my boyfriend, my friends ( Read more... )

i haven't been on in almost 2 years, that is amazing. i'm so different and all of these posts sure do bring me back. now that barely anyone is on here i will be able to vent.

i'm excited for schoool :]

but i think my boobs shrunk :[

I'm glad to be home. pictures will be posted soon, i promise.

hm... sooooo.....

( ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm )

ALRIGHT. that's it. boys.. you can hurt me all you want.. i'm used to it so it is kind of expected.. but you hurt my LINDSEY.. MY BRAIN.. now you're in trouble.

i love my brains.. beach tomorrow.. it's going to be a blast.