i only come home to see my family. or what's left of it anyways. my little brother and sister are asleep ( he's playing gameboy under the covers, she's talking on the phone to her friend) and i walked in to see my dad "sleeping" on the computer desk. his truck wasn't in the driveway so i wasn't expecting him to be here. i was happy. until i asked ( Read more... )

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everything could be good. the good to bad ratio is like

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i have never felt so full. i'm so inlove and so loved.

so, that means it can only go down hill from here. it's only a matter of time.

but i'm going to live every moment of this like i've never been hurt <33

and every other one. it's always my fault. my am i always fucking everything up?

you have nooooo idea.

hmm. i don't really know where to start. i'm so done with life and pain and guilt and life and death and pain. yeah, that's what's up.

nothing.

i hate it. so make me hate you.

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i thought something like jealousy would fade as i mature. i'm either just as immature or i'm just a jealous person.

I HATE IT. i don't feel good enough. i wonder if she's better than me..... i annoy myself

i have a confession to make:

hey, aint life wonderful? wonderful... isnt it wonderful
Now?

I close my eyes when I get too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
Close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope its over when I open them

I want the things that I had before
Like a star wars poster on my bedroom door
I wish I could count to ten
Make everything be ( Read more... )