i suck at life. i cannot ever do anything right and all i ever do is upset people when i'm just trying to understand whats going on. god sometimes i hate myself

if only i was not so easily disappointed...if the little things didnt matter so much

what do you do when you are trying to have a simple conversation about something that is botherint you and it turns into you being someone who guilttrips and causes issues and blames him for everything. i hate the way i can't talk about something that is bothering me without him feeling he is to blame or fix it. all i wanted was him to help me ( Read more... )

so who hasnt figured out that i exaggerate when i tell stories because i want to look cool ( Read more... )

i went to bed at 930 last night, thus as i am up early for work, I feel great. very smart decision on my part. that is all

:)

ooo i am so upset right now. goddamn him.

i am not sure i like this whole summer during college thing. i have not been able to sleep for the last like 3 nights, and i think i know why. i thought i was okay with the way things were happening, but i dont think i am, completely. i mean for the most part things are okay and i don't have a problem with what is going on, but there are some ( Read more... )

brothers are so annoying

i got straight a's this semester!

i feel absolutely disrespected as a person. I feel completely undervalued as a person. I feel like I am a terrible person who is flawed beyond repair. After tonight, I have come to realize that no matter what I say or do, I am judged in a way that I do not appreciate. I realized that I am not allowed to have the fears I want without worry they ( Read more... )