and i guess thats why they call it the blues

hmm i dont know why but i'm wondering what honesty really is. is it not lying, or is it telling the whole truth. is it okay ever to not tell the people close to you important, or unimportant, information. i dont know. hmmm

well school is out, so you'd think that I'd be doing okay. but no i'm just as stressed as ever. I have so many different issues left to deal with. I really don't know what I am going to do. Certain things about the summer have come to scare me plus for some reason a bunch of different decisions I have made this year are coming back to haunt me ( Read more... )

i smell like summer. i spent most of today laying outside in the ox courtyard. it was wonderful. now i have that summer sunny smell. it makes me very happy. also the fact that i have one exam left does. :)

have a wonderfuly day

so i cannot find this one paper that i need so i can revise it and get a decent grade. if i dont find this, my chances of getting an A- are completely shot to hell. i had the damn paper in my hand yesterday. i have no idea where the hell it went and i'm frustrated beyond belief. i think i could just shoot someone right now.

put your itunes on random, right down your favoite lyrics of the first 25 songs

1)Nobody said it was easy, it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy, no one ever said it would be this hard
2) But for now I’ll just say I love you
Nothing more seems important somehow
And tomorrow can wait come whatever
3) And when you were born, they ( Read more... )

i hate feeling like an obligation and that i've just been penciled into someone's day

well so much for studying this weekend like i so desperately needed to. and so much for keeping my lovely little go to bed early schedule. I am no completley exhausted. but oh well i shall survive, a nice shower and breakfast followed by a lengthy nap should do the trick.

this week has been absolutely insane. i'm exhausted physically and emotionally. i also feel like absolute crap. :( oh well i'll just go to bed early and tomorrow should be better....

today i wrote in my real journal. like sat down and poured out those things that have been keeping me up at night and haunting my dreams. it felt really good to write it down and see the page fill up. watch the pain fill up with pain and sorrow. it was a good choice...