the little things.  i take a shower.  stand in front of my mirror.  up down up down up. 
there it is.  a scar.

my couch is all torn up and i clip my nails.  i have a bit of a headache.

time to dress.  avoid the mirror.  whatever fits wins.

i'm ready for a change

HATRED is filling me up to puking point.
soon it will spatter from my lips- hurling body into convulsion.

God give me the grace to endure this.  take my hatred.  take my pain.  take it all.  or take me away.

oh.

hello yellow.

you make me a little nervous, you yellow prince.

you can wear that sweater and i will wear a little hat.  with a single glorious peacock feather.
oh.

yes.  that sounds lovely.

i just remembered my neglected friend, livejournal.

i am sitting in the sun, the smell of fresh grass is so intense, and i am happy.  i am listening to the shins.  i just ate a delicious sandwich.

oh and i am learning self defense so dont mess. 

ummmmm  i got cast in a play.  its a musical.  i got one of da leads.  ummmmm ( Read more... )

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would anyone care to take a peek at me and haley's new house?

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important update:  haley and i have a house! 

i have a lot of work to do and no time to do it.  and yet- in this small opening of time that i have right now- i cant seem to motivate myself to start!  whats wrong with me??   i am just sitting here... staring into space.  i tried to start writing my paper but the words just werent coming to me.  i hate it when that happens ( Read more... )

i feel pretty down right now.  not sure why.  last night was not a very good night.

why is it that despite constant forgiveness from God, we still screw up?  we go right back to those things that we know we dont need.  its  a weakness.  its pathetic.  i hate that i follow the status quo.  i want to be above my own fucking sin, thank you very much.

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