I need to start writing down my dreams and since I'm lazy, I thought of my old LJ account :)

So the dream I had last night... I was getting married to Angel but I didn't want to at ALL. In the back of my head I kept thinking "What about Mike?" The whole wedding was very last minute, and even though my wedding dress was beautiful, I was still wearing ( Read more... )

I'm sick of constantly feeling like shit, like I'm not good enough. I'm tired of being passive, why can't I just straight up say what I feel? I really don't want to lose him, but he's seriously about to lose me. I can't deal with this, I know what I deserve and it's 100 times better than what he has  to offer ( Read more... )

Everybody needs inspiration; everybody needs a song. A beautiful melody when the night's so long. 'Cause there is no guarantee that this life is easy. When my world is falling apart and there's no light to break up the dark, that's when I look at you. When the waves are flooding the shore and I can't find my way home anymore, that's when I look at ( Read more... )

I'm such a mess of emotions right now. I'm cracking up like crazy because I'm like 27 pages into textsfromlastnight.com, but it's basically only to keep myself from thinking slash being bored.

So I definitely feel like whenever I update this thing, it's to talk about a boy. I'm a little bit boy crazy... yeah, that's sort of an understatement, ( Read more... )

I am so confused.

A year ago, I got hurt more than I ever thought possible. I put up a wall and wouldn't let anybody in, not even a great man that was willing to take me as I was, broken, and spend his life with me. I couldn't handle getting close to anybody, not after what he did to me. I ended up hurting a lot of people because I desired that ( Read more... )

A week ago I would have said that I've given up. Lost hope. Done all I could and that what I want simply doesn't exist. Today I have hope, and I'm done looking. Even though it's going to be a while, I think I've found it. And I can wait for it. It will be worth it.
I don't think I've ever really felt like this before. That sounds so cliche. Let me ( Read more... )

I'm glad that it's over with us. I don't even know what else to say. You wasted a year and a half of my life abusing the relationship that we built from a friendship. You took me for granted one too many times. You lied to me. You cheated on me. You hurt me, physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually... I can't forgive you. I can't. I can't ( Read more... )

When I use my laptop, these solar nails or whatever make my right pointer finger bend backwards on the little touch pad thing. UHH ( Read more... )

dun dun dun dun dun dun dun dun dun dun dun dun dun dun dun dunnnnnnnnn.

I was feeling the need to make an entry, to make myself feel better. but now I'm sort of at a writer's block.

bummer.

time to be brave.

I'm done.