I'm starting to think that I big part of my anxiety at work comes from the fact that I don't really "believe in" what I'm doing. I don't find this work meaningful or worth my time - or anyone's time. I don't tell people that I don't believe in the work, but I know that they have bought into it while I have not. That's technically a conflict even ( Read more... )

I still like the idea of becoming an herbalist, or medicinal plant specialist, consultant, etc. Wortcunner is probably the best term.

And I just realized the best way to do it. Learn one plant at a time. Trying to read about or memorize a bunch at once is not realistic. I need to get to know each plant deeply, with patience and thoroughness. 

This Summer, I joined the book club at work. We'r reading about racism and how white people can address the inevitable, subtle racism that influences their thoughts. So, I've been thinking about my life. My white life. I'm trying to examine thoughts and actions that have always felt innocent.

For example, yesterday, I was getting ready for Season ( Read more... )

For many years, decades really, I have wanted to somehow "get into" the paranormal. But, I've been afraid of letting evil spirits into my life. Mostly, I'm worried that they will hurt, or even kill, our cats. There was a whole series about ghosts that frighten, harm, and kill pets as a part of their manifestation. So, obviously, I can't just start ( Read more... )

It's not so hard to explain, really. I don't know why I've felt for so long that it would be difficult to defend my decision to leave the food industry. I did an internship at a food processing plant, interviewed at several food companies and was employed by two during the Summer of 2016. The unpleasant experiences I had when I was working in the ( Read more... )

When I was around 29 or 30, there were a lot of things I was hoping to do or accomplish by the time I turned 35. Here are the ones I can remember:

30 year old me: "By the time I'm 35 I will have . . ."

figured out how to put on makeup,

earned a graduate degree,

straightened my teeth,

augmented my breasts,

adopted a puppy,

learned how to make candy,
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Sweet sexy lady, just like jazz.

I had a few drinks while making dinner and had a little nostalgia cry as I listened to songs of my youth. I was trying to recapture a certain mood, I guess. In a lot of ways, I'm so much happier now, but there seems to be something I've lost. I'm stifling the rebellious side of myself. I don't feel beautiful ( Read more... )

Years ago, I wrote a post about what I now call my "knowledge journey," and now I'm going to write a quick update on that.

Recently, I stumbled across a palmistry diagram and discovered that I have the "healer's mark," which is supposed to mean that I have special powers or abilities to bring about physical, emotional, and mental healing. So, with ( Read more... )

Besides just cookbooks, there is a ridiculously large number of books about food. Many of them address hunger, or the environmental effects of farming. So many of them make excellent points about what is wrong with our food system. Some authors even attempt to offer solutions to reform the food system and make it more equitable. There are even ( Read more... )

Use the hand gestures that orchestra conductors use to manage the class. For example, when bringing them to silence use the conductor's hand movement that silences the orchestra. Mr. W basically does this - I think it's just his instinct. I wonder if he even knows that he's doing it.

Anyway, so on the first day of class, show a video of an ( Read more... )