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Here We Go Again...
Oh man, it's weird starting a new year at Stanford. It still feels like an entirely new experience because last year was such a slog and totally dominated by the Core. Hopefully this year will be less stressful, but we'll see ( Read more... ) -
Home, Where My Thoughts Escaping
Home now! I missed everyone so much and it's been great being home (except for the weather). I missed our little family here (A and G and me, with M and L visiting, etc ( Read more... ) -
Why can't people just be nice to each other?
Today is an awful day. I cannot believe this is the country I live in. I can't even look at or think about it and I know that is my priveledge and I am grateful for it. I am not going to talk about it because I just can't ( Read more... ) -
Secret Birthday
M was here with me over the weekend and we had a lovely time. I felt so much better with her here and even now that she's gone, I still feel safer or more grounded or something, but it's kind of wearing off. She really is wonderful. We got sunburnt on Fisherman's Wharf and then wound up doing a crazy hike in Muir Woods with K and dyed our hair and ( Read more... ) -
Snippet
It's just this feeling that I can never stop being vilgilant because everything has always been on me to solve. I had to get Becca fed and changed when she was a baby. I had to get us food. I had to keep them from arguing. I had to pay the bills. I had to, I had to. I was a child, that wasn't my job ( Read more... ) -
Unfinished, but I have to close this window
So in therapy this Monday, Dr. K said (and I'll muddle this a bit because I can't quite remember it verbatim) that anger keeps you safer in an abusive situation because it's a protective, active emotion while fear makes you high and try to calm things down ( Read more... ) -
What is wrong with people?!?
So a couple of things have been going on and so this will be a combo therapy entry and just regular entry ( Read more... ) -
Kardong Entry 4
Okay... I may have lost an entry here, but this is definitely #4 ( Read more... ) -
Kardong Entry 3
So in today's session (which was actually the one for the previous entry, I've been dating these forward to the next appointment), we talked about my relationships with men in relation to how what Stan did to me and my relationship with him shaped my relationship with men (that is a sentence, okay?) and she pointed out that on top of the fact that ( Read more... ) -
Kardong Entry 2
Following up with last week's post, I was listening to Strangers today and Lea (the host) has been interviewing Trump voters in an attempt to find a middle ground and she was lamenting: "Learning that the other side isn't a bunch of monsters doesn't make this any easier" and I think that's very cogent for me because while in some ways being able to ( Read more... )