Here goes...

[kittycornflakes]

At the beginning! yes...(thanks M x x x) and everyone for your kindness and care

Comments

[sailor_bean]

i'm so sorry to hear all of this Josie. Please don't ever feel like you are troubling us. my thoughts are with you and your family &hearts

[kittycornflakes]

I sort of feel better sharing it Courtney, I thought it might be a bit much and felt nervous. Thanks ever so much petal x x x

[primmadollies]

I had to read this post 2 or 3 times to make sure I read it right. Josie, I'm so glad you feel comfortable getting this all off your chest here, and I hope it helps

[kittycornflakes]

Melissa, I'm so touched by your reply. I can imagine that this was a hard one to make for you and that you did with your beautiful words of encouragement, I can't tell you how much it means to me. I was aware that you lost your mom in recent years but never knew how. Thank you for all your postive energy sent our way.

As for my situation, I'm positive with right treatment and rest I'll come out of it just fine. You're so right about the pneumonia thing too!, Wow, I never thought of the fate aspect and I usually look for that first:D Isadora my SB is sitting with me at the moment asking what the hell am I going to do about her unruly bangs and demanding I make her an Elvis tote bag!

{huge hug backatya} x x x

[xoxoblythe]

oh josie, i'm so sorry to hear the news and how you've been keeping it all to yourself. at least the doctors were able to diagnose both you and your mum's condition and they can be treated in time. and i agree with courtney, please don't feel like you're burdening us with your problems, it really does help to just get it out and have people listen, even if it's just typing it out on your computer. i am optimistic and i know you and your family will come out of this. sending many ♥s and XXXXs

[kittycornflakes]

Thanks Linda, I really appreciate you's all being here for me. I feel very lucky indeed. In a close proximity situation, it's so hard to see the wood for the trees so to speak and I DO feel so much less anxious and confused than I have been over the past number of days, it has really helped just take a bit of pressure off by posting this. Yes, you're right we will see this through! {hugs}

[shershe]

I've written and rewritten this message at least a dozen times...just can't find the right words to express what I'm feeling. I am in shock and just feel terrible for you. Please, please take care of yourself and tell your Mom and Dad as soon as you can. You need to have support and the thought of you being alone in all of this is what makes me feel the worst. You're in my thoughts and prayers!

[kittycornflakes]

Aww Sherri, I dreaded saying {hugs} I just really didn't want it to come out all in a blurb like it has. I was in half a mind to tell you that all wasn't too well the other day but nothing was set in stone at that point. Though saying that, it still isn't because I feel my problem will be fixable, it's just an intuitive thing which may sound strange but I just know it's a glitch. My aunt rang about a couple of hours ago, apparently my mum (her sister) had asked her to check on how I was, she was talking with me about my Mums situation and was asking how I felt about it and I felt better about just having a bit of a chat to her. She's coming over at weekend so I feel a lot more supported even if she doesn't know about me yet. I have Ray too even though he doesn't live her anymore, he just is supportive in his own way by being positive, he says everything will be fine. He's trying to be cheery, he hates illness of any kind but he's doing great, we can't talk about it but in his own way it's what I need the normality of stuff

[shershe]

I'm glad your Aunt is coming to visit and that you do have her to talk to...even if you don't feel you can tell her everything that's really going on with you right now. And I know you are going to be fine...you and your Mom are going to get thru this!

[freakaletta]

josie, i'm so very sorry you and your ma are so sick right now.
please be gentle with yourself, and do whatever brings you pleasure, whatever lightens your burden. i wish for you comfort and strength.
and you know? i believe one shouldn't ever have to apologize for expressing one's feelings, pains, experiences.
*hugs*

[kittycornflakes]

If I was a stranger to myself (please bear with me here)..If I met me and was told my troubles I couldn't wish to give myself better advise than what you have given. Thanks from the bottom of my heart Carmen {hugs} x x x