..so, if it sucks, sorry.

kill me softly, kill me slowly,
drenched in the blood of my one and only.

the words that ceased to pass my lips
the wall i built
to sheild each hit
the way you never took the time
you believe this to be
a victimless crime

but me,
im stuck in this endless cycle,
always
trying to believe everything is ok
when the clock is ticking
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Had a bad day, don't talk to me ( Read more... )

I woke up at about five. Walked downstairs where everyone was sitting, watching tv, and god damn, they were looking at me like big ugly starved monsters, ready to fuckin tear me to pieces. And what a suprise, they did just that. In no time my dad was bitching at me because he couldnt find the quacamole sauce...? Then, I left my drink on my mothers ( Read more... )

um. i think i was gonna write something important...but i forgot what that was ( Read more... )

hmm. well, today was ok i guess. i just brushed my teeth about 2 minutes ago. that was pretty intense 0.o um.. yep ( Read more... )

i love this song.

HEr green plastiC wateringcan for her fake chineserubberplant
in the fake plastic earth.
that she bought from a rubber man in a town full of rubber PlanS
to get rid of itself,- it wears her out.

SHe lives with a broken man,
a cracked polystyreneman who just
crumbles and burns.
He used to do surgery for girls in the eighties but ( Read more... )

updating this is like talking to myself!! ha! who knew!!? well, if anyone just happens to pop in for a little visit, check out this band ( Read more... )

the stuff doesnt work anymore. and i can only get so much each time. i need something else. something stronger. much stronger. occasionally i get other things [like the v------ im on right now] but i need something more. it used to completely cut off my thoughts and give me a fucking break, but now.. i dont know.. it just doesnt work as well.

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today was a total drag. i had to fill out a bunch of mid-term exam reviews. not fun. people got on my nerves. everyone was talking as if the other person was across the room. nagging me and talkingtalkingtalkingtalkingandlaughingandtalking about pointless shit and laughingandtalking and they wouldnt shut the fuck up!

but i eventually drowned them ( Read more... )

angels mourn crying, praying for your soul
as my eyes open from their state of sleep i feel my blood
turn into a frozen river
nightmares so close death was in the air
my heart locked shut, and i gave you the key
promise never to leave
as lies hold me emptiness fills my broken heart
screaming your name hoping for a response, silence summer
drowned by winter
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