Pyro and I are broken up. You know I read back at a few pages of entries and damn he was violent. wtf yo. anyway. zim just busted into my room like he ownes this nigga... there is a new person named chris in my life. hes a dj. kinda like this one. but im pretty sure i fucked all that up by being a cunt about a few things and falling for pyros ( Read more... )

Well the end of my first semester is near. My relationship with scott hasn't gotten any better and I still work my ass off. oh wait for 7.50 a hour now. I got a raise.. :/I wish I hadn't of fucked my life up and became a felon. whatever. I have a shit ton of homework to do in English IT and student development. and it all has to get done this week ( Read more... )

Ive been realy sad lately.. ever since conrad forced me to "convince" him why i should be allowed to see my kids i feel like ive died on the inside. I dont know what to do and Ive been sliding further into the abyss of depression. I miss having a family unit. I hate conrad with every fiber of my being and I wish I never met him. I miss my kids ( Read more... )

I work 40 + hours a week. I thought applying to school was a great idea.. I thought that doing this was what I was supposed to do.. But... Scotts Mom hates me.. I cant use one of his 3 cars to go to class or work because his mother doesn't want me to.. so the wind just kinda got kicked out of my sails. I pay her rent to live here. I clean the house ( Read more... )

So I took my placement for the math today... Bombed it as I thought I would.. haha.. But anyway.. I turned in my tax forms today and did the final paperwork. So now all I do is wait. UGH.. In November I can go and sign up for classes. heres what I will be doing for my first semester. Eng 111, and Eng 009 which are taught by the same teacher which i ( Read more... )

the reason scotts mom is poor now is cause of that trailor.. the reason scott got poped by the cops is he had to sell drugs to give me money.. and then she had to bail him out with the 10000 dollar lawyer and the court money and the house arrest money.. the reason i fucked up there life is all me and my kids and how much we sucked them dry... im a ( Read more... )

that really make me wonder if were guna make it. He ate my peanut butter cups. and drank my slim fast. so i say i can wear his nice new ecko clothes to work and splatter bleach all over them cause his mom bought them and it doesn't matter. like he said my peanut butter cups dont matter. I dont drink any soda anymore. I starve myself all day for the ( Read more... )

id like to say hes getting a brand new expensive lap top and all the extra frills now.. yay rub more things in my face.. when i do my taxes im going on a big clothes buying spree.. hes all happy and giddy and looking at external drives for more storage and all this extra stuff. i fucking hate privileged people.

RRgh.. Im kinda pissy I applied for fafsa today and then tried to apply to nova but my account that I just created conflicts with another student account.. So its awesome that my social is being used all over im sure some mexican is enjoying the benefit of my citizenship.. so now i gotta go to nova and sort it out.. and im also sure i wont even be ( Read more... )

I cant sleep its 3 am and im having a panic attack in my bed because im in a myspace battle with coke whore nikki because conrad told her that my kids were taken from me because i couldnt take care of myself and them and then were given to him. and i never see them and i am not apart of there lives WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK. it made me cry im still ( Read more... )