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I've got soul but I'm not a soldier...
So it's been a crazy week. I can't believe I have my own apartment now. It still feels extremely surreal. Liz and I have almost finished decorating and organizing it. Our living room/my bedroom is all in tans and off-whites and blues, our kitchen will probably reflect our similar tastes in theatre/movies, and the bathroom has this woodsy feel to it ( Read more... ) -
Tell me can you hear me now?
It was definately a long weekend. I ended up hanging out with a variety of people, but was never quite happy because I thought Tim was still really mad at me and didn't want to see me. Friday I called him a bunch of times since I was in Branford having coffee with Liz and her dad, and then on Saturday I saw him at tai chi and he completely ignored ( Read more... ) -
ugh
So I gave into myself because I'm weak. I called him and he didn't pick up. And now I'm probably worrying about nothing. He's probably just busy doing some sort of work. I just want to talk to him. I'm so pathetic sometimes. I'm getting myself all riled up over nothing. That could be a something. But probably isn't. I just want him to call me so ( Read more... ) -
I've heard it said...
I'm scared. Really, honestly scared. I know what I have to do, but what are the chances of it being a suicide mission for the part of me I've protected for so long that I don't even remember deciding it was going to be protected? High. Almost definate. But it's the only way either of us and both of us will probably be happy. It's the only way that ( Read more... ) -
You, you could do all I couldn't do...
Well, yesterday was interesting. After letting a lot of stuff go from work, I went out to New Haven and Hamden to pick up some things for my apartment that I found on freecycle. One of the freecyclers was really awesome and gave me a lot more stuff than I expected. Afterwards, I headed out to Branford to give my job application to CuraGen. I can ( Read more... ) -
Haven't you heard that I'm the new cancer
I give up. I can't eat, though I haven't had anything since last night. I don't want to do anything, I don't even want to call him. I didn't bother to see what time he sent the email this morning. Or late last night. I don't know. I called him last night and everything seemed ok enough ( Read more... ) -
Please, I just need some space to think
2:30 PM. Phone Rings. Following Conversation Ensues:
Dad: Hey sweetie, I'm in the middle of nowhere.
Me:I was just about to leave work...
Dad: That's ok, I just heard a commercial on the radio and thought about you. Actually, I've heard it a lot of times.
Me: Oh really? What is it?
Dad: A completely legitimate way to make $8000.
Me: *laughs* Well, I'm ( Read more... ) -
Weather today: slightly sarcastic
So, Mom flew off the handle yesterday about the apartment. She was convinced I was pregnant and moving in with Tim to have our illegitimate child. Right.
I chose to ignore her, and now she's okay again. I think. For the time being. *sighs* Two weeks until I move in. Granted, because I did inspections with my Dad and he didn't pay me 1/2 like he ( Read more... ) -
You've got someone here who wants to make it alright, someone who loves you.
Since I figure this entry will be pretty long, I'll separate it into chapters and cuts so not to clog anyone's friends' page. Yay for having a million things to say and no real drive to say anything but one.
What exactly happened that was good in the past week? Obviously there was taiji which always makes me happy. Sunday I went to the beach with ( Read more... ) -
Loathing, unadulterated loathing
God, he pisses me off so fucking much sometimes. Mr. High-&-Mighty, coming off a 5 day binge, has the audacity to yell at my mother for not listening to him while he's rambling about something completely trivial. Honestly, he's one of the main reasons I'm leaving the house. Not that my mom's not crazy and hasn't been a complete bitch the last few ( Read more... )