I have internet again! JOY. Still haven't found that life-purpose I've been looking for though. And seriously? WTF? Why must I INSIST on falling head over heels in love with people I CAN NEVER EVER HAVE?? And that will probably never want me anyway. He is playing with me and I KNOW IT. And yet... I can't bring myself to cut it off like I should. ( Read more... )

Today I am 26. It has been a hell of a year, to say the least. I have started a new chapter in this giant book that is my life, yet again. Sometimes I think it is always bad experiences that I add to my on-going novel, so I would like to take this time to review the year a bit, just to prove that is not true ( Read more... )

So I'm sitting at work tonight, texting with a friend, and it occurs to me that I haven't written fanfiction in like, a hundred years. So I'm thinkin it may be time again. But heres the deal... no plot bunnies! So... who wants to help me out here? I'm thinking Gundam, and I'm thinking lemon... thoughts?

*peeks head out from behind... something ( Read more... )

I've been finding myself questioning the whole idea of conventional relationships lately. This could be, in large part, due to the fact that every one I have tried to have has ended. Spectacularly. We're talking the burning of Rome here. So I'm particularly terrified about putting myself out there again, in any capacity. I have a tendency to fall ( Read more... )

They Decide to Remain Strangers

Die fucking trying
in love's glass bottomed boat
did she misremember your name?
inside rooms that don't belong to you
and phone calls never made
all your memories borrowing time
holding out your hands
with nothing better to do than rest

You've Always Turned Your Head

Begging to give myself away
so the game is to wait it out...
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(I'm sorry ( Read more... )

Holy crap something good is happening to me and I don't know what to do about it! I forgot how to deal with the positive, so now I'm all in a tizzy. And the sad thing is... IT'S ABOUT A BOY.

I'm such a dork.

I don't post here anymore because I don't know how to explain what I really want to say. I still lurk... I still love you guys.

But life in all it's complexity and mystery has left me pretty much at a loss for words.

For the first time in my life, I don't know how to write about it. Sorry.

Why is there not a reset button on my life? Cause damn.